memory

Haha came across this clip that a student from NJ posted on youtube.. Never knew they videotaped our moments of embarrassment with the teacher stressing out at the rehearsal.. I burst out laughing when i saw the familiar scoldings he gives when he sees the students confused.. Taken for Nj dance rehearsal when we went down to help them pick up the steps for the same dance he taught us previously.. But as you can see, his own students are lost ourselves.. *winkz*

My saturday

My chocolate cravings have started again.. Aargh!! And it's so annoying that Hershey's cookies and cream has become so hard to find nowadays..

Anyway, had a pretty eventful day today.. Since dinner plans didn't take place today, I had nothing on in particular, so after church met mum and went to the shop.. We did some sales, had lunch and waited for Prem Uncle's call to meet him at the Tandoori Restaurant with Rebecca.. Since I had nothing to do and was going to rot at home anyway, followed mum.. It was pretty interesting actually watching the discussions between Prem Uncle(who kept calling me 'aunty' in every sentence and who kept insisting that each time I took my phone , it was to respond to my boyfriend), Rebecca(who surprised me first by telling me she learns belly dancing and also by informing me that she studies at SIM too), and Parthi( who took some kind of interest in patting me on the head each time he moved).. These people were a bunch of clowns on the loose.. So time kind of flew by.. Oh and that place sells the best 'jilabies'.. I never take jilabies normally cuz I don't like them but these are the only ones i actually enjoy.. :)

Got dance tomorrow.. wonder how old the kids are going to be and I haven't even choreographed the dance yet.. Haha.. Very professional.. :) I just hope they give me slightly older kids.. Otherwise it's going to be pretty difficult.. Oh and my darling girls, prepare to do a repeat of 'Meharuba'.. Haha.. In our favourite costumes of all time.. *winkz*

I'm really tired and in extreme pains.. haiz.. Biogesic seems to have lost its effect on me.. Unfortunately..

Afraid

There are certain things that annoy me... I can be very patient but I do get a little annoyed by certain things..

Right now, I'm not angry cuz I don't know what exactly the reasons are and so I'm not jumping to conclusions but rather, giving things the benefit of the doubt.. But it's still disappointing that the basic act of getting back to me when I was expecting a response didn't seem important enough.. More so, cuz it wasn't just me who was waiting, but alot of others too..

Oh well.. I don't know what's going on and I'm afraid to think about it.. I'm going to stop trying and let things be cuz I'm scared of trying again..

On another note... I want to go Esplanade!!! Now I have gotten the mood to go already.. Grrr.. Wasted that our plans failed.. some other time I suppose :) Now that time is so limited, I keep trying to figure out when I can go to the zoo, shopping, Toys R Us, temples, Night Safari and stuff.. Sad la..

Scribbles

I have visions of me being suspended from a HDB flat's topmost floor with the possibility of falling to my death.. *shudders* That one sms freaked the hell out of me... 'It won't take me more than 2 hrs to drive down.....' Woah.. S-C-A-R-Y !!

ESA makes me feel very "un- glam" .. Haiz.. Safety boots and goggles with a nice pretty skirt is just a big NO NO.. But no choice.. Company regulations.. I cannot imagine the safety boots if i wear indian attire to work.. Sheesh!

Anyway, Zah is leaving in 3 days.. So sad.. She was always someone who was a call away .. And she actually got me Hershey's Sundae Pie and muffins when I met her.. So sweet right? Haiz.. Gonna miss you girl.. Hurry up and come back *hugz*

My Chechi came back , though.. Yay!! Had a nice long telephone convo.. Missed her so bad and I really hope at least this time we get some time to hang out and do more together than just visit a museum to appreciate 50,000 toys in less than 50 minutes.. That is not happening again.. (especially not in a punjabi suit!!!)

Anyway, hope your Batam trip is exciting tomorrow *winkz* I know you can't wait.. Haha.. Oh well anyway, gonna go sleep now.. Or mum will shoo me away from the room.. Nightey night..

Back to work

Horrible weekend .. Haiz.. Never have I felt so sick in my life before.. I'm so glad it's over and I'm thankful that I'm left only with severe gastric pains and cough.. That is so much more bearable than the rest, especially the horrible migraines that never went away...

Oh well, anyway today was another day at work, another day where I just sat and watched the clock most of the day .. Work is getting pretty tiring.. I wish the computer and stuff would be set up a bit faster and that I had to walk through the shopfloors a little less.. :) Then things may be a lot more pleasant and I wouldn't end up having myself stuck in awkward situations entertaining the staff who come by for signatures... If I thought last year's episode with a certain someone from the staff getting hold of my handphone number to declare his love to me was traumatising, I think today was a bit scarier cuz this was face to face.. Never have I been faced with someone who pesters me to date him in person, who keeps showering me with the weirdest of compliments, who insists I must have a boyfriend, who makes me so uncomfortable that I get so conscious walking across him, who happens to be married but thinks it's okay to carry on with his game, who requested the strangest and most traumatising of things, who refused to leave my table till he got his signature despite knowing he wouldn't get it for the next hour as everyone other than me was out of the office for a meeting.. Seriously.. The place never ceases to amaze me...

Can't wait for the weekend though.. I want to just slack.. Tomorrow should be pretty eventful.. Meeting Zah after such a looong time..So much to catch up on and it could be a farewell before she flies off on Saturday.. Then if time permits I get to meet the other 2 nuts in my life, Sasi and Vas.. That would be an excellent ending to my day if it goes according to plan.. And then Saturday may be something to look forward to as well if everything carries on like what it's supposed to be.. Oh well, we shall see ...

Anyway I'm off to bed.. Goodnight!

Sick...

I hate falling sick, especially this way when it comes down to a point where I can't even get myself to do anything.. I fell this sick one year ago, also when I joined ESA.. Haha.. Nose is so blocked, cough is killing me.. Chest hurts so badly from all the coughing.. Temperature rose pretty high early in the morning.. Couldn't get myself to move to look for panadol and didn't feel good disturbing mum or grandma to help cuz mum just had her wisdom tooth surgically removed and grandma was not feeling too good either so i tried to wait for it to subside by forcing myself to get back to sleep.. That didn't work.. Finally, my mum woke up to realise I was feeling terrible and touched my forehead and almost flipped.. Oh well, horrible feeling.. Really.. Whole body aching so badly and the cough was making it worse and the fever brought about a migraine as well.. Finally went to see the doctor and the fever has subsided now.. I just hope I recover by tomorrow.. If it doesn't go off by Monday, I got to go back for a blood test to confirm it isn't dengue.. Haiz.. Cannot afford to miss work.. Got transfers to settle..

And because of the fever, I ended up missing meeting up with Vic and Selva today.. And it's so disappointing cuz I was really looking forward to it.. Aargh.. Been so long since I saw them last.. And I feel so bad now cancelling out on them cuz I know they were looking forward to it as well.. Thanks gal, for understanding when I called you this morning.. Will seeya soon, k?

I miss my friends.. And Sasi darling, I meant to meet you on your birthday and now it's been a week.. And it's such horrible luck we both have to fall sick at the same time.. Next week, k? I need to meet you.. :)

And I want to go out.. Meant to take the kids out for Shrek 3 since it's holidays for them.. But they have cheated me and managed to get the CD and all 3 have already watched it.. Aargh.. I wanna watch!!! Oh well, let's see how it goes, I suppose..

Anyway got to go now.. Better get some sleep.. Very drowsy...

Saying goodbye

Horrid day...

Vaarsha's grandpa passed away this morning.. Early in the morning and we couldn't not go to work.. Had to drop by the office and stay the day there.. That is another story altogether.. My second day at work and I end up stoning most of the day again.. Then just when I thought things couldn't get worse, the manager comes to brief me and give me 'exciting' news.. The company had to start off a new committee to take on the responsibility of ensuring that safety measures in the company and relevant trainings and medical examinations of the staff was properly taken care of.. And I get the responsibilty of approving transfers of workers within departments after confirming that they have completed the requirements.. I almost fell off my chair cuz the responsibility is scary and I'm just temporary and the slightest mistake I make could have serious consequences.. I'm really not liking the sound of it.. I so much rather do filing or something like that.. Haiz.. My luck is always against me.. I don't even know anything about environmental health and safety.. Haha.. Oh well..

On a more serious note, we went for the funeral after work.. I really don't like going for funerals as I get very very uncomfortable and restless and go very quiet.. I haven't really gone for any after my Dad.. I did go, for my friends when I knew it might make a difference, but it took a lot to go.. Cuz everything comes back and I'm scared to go through those emotions.. I haven't been in the midst of a funeral after my Dad.. The only two funerals I have attended in the last 5 years, was cuz I felt I really had to and even then, I left quickly.. Today was different.. On one hand, it was sad, cuz he was a really nice man.. I don't really know him well and have never really spoken to him but I do know enough to conclude how nice he can be.. The way he took his gold chain and gave to his granddaughter a few days ago telling her how he had a feeling he wouldn't be around to see her wedding and that he wanted her to use the chain.. That was really touching.. And to make matters worse, his wife only arrived tonight from a holiday, oblivious to what was awaiting her at home.. That must have been absolutley painful.. I didn't know what I could say to my aunty to console her seeing her Dad lying in the coffin.. Knowing only too well what would be running through her mind and watching her fight to be strong was just bringing everything back.. I went to wait under the block as I knew it would get harder to wait around.. I didn't want to go back in when they started chanting the prayers as I knew I wasn't ready.. I kept myself outside until my grandma needed me to get her bag for her.. I was just hoping she wouldn't ask me to go in.. But my aunty asked me if I could and at that moment, I couldn't say 'no' to her and so I went.. The chanting and the people and the smoke... It all came back.. The familiar prayers and stuff.. I quickly left but it was already hard.. Only Neelu, thankfully noticed the change in me and my movements after coming out of the house.. The rest were too distracted to notice.. I don't know what I would have told them if they had asked me.. Have to go back for the funeral tomorrow.. It's such a pity that a really nice soul like him had to be taken away but we do get comfort from the fact that he is in a better place now and rid of all his pain once and for all.. Whatever it is, I pray that everyone has the courage and strength tomorrow to go through the whole procedure.. It is never easy but it helps when you start believing that somewhere in someway, they still remain with us.. Some part of them still lingers around us.. And Acha, I know you are around as well.. In some way, I still feel you around.. And for that, I'm thankful :)