A Tribute

I didn't want to write about it or think about it but I just found out it was Vic's dad's birthday today.. Well, things come flooding back.. Acha's birthday was on Thursday. And I tried not to give it much thought. Tried to brush it away. Now it's back.. Oh well...

At times like these with so many things going on in my life, I wish he were here.. To stand by me, to guide me, to show me the way. I think I may not have been this paranoid and afraid if he was around. Think I might have been more willing to gamble with things if I had the security of his presence next to me. Dances would have been different too. That feeling of having him take time off from work to get home early to help me with my hair and all, that look and smile that would form on his face as he watched me on stage.. I still remember how I was doing "Kannodu Kaanbathellam" once on stage and he wasnt in the audi cuz he was helping with tickets outside. As my song blared on the speakers, I noticed the doors open and I saw him slip in and stand by the shadows throughout my dance. I remember that happiness welling up inside of me when I saw his smile and the look of pride on his face in watching his little girl perform.. Those emotions are gone forever...

I also remember how he taught us how to make catapults, how to catch birds with a basket, how to feed a young calf, how to hold a goat kid.. Trips to India are never the same without him around. I remember that smile on his face the day I came of age. That look in his eyes as grandma asked him to feed me some weird mixture of herbs and God knows what roots.. The way he spent so many $1 coins on that spastic machine at the arcade just because I said I wanted a doll from there. The way he used to bring us to funfairs.. The way he was so tired yet he took us for Hercules during the holidays and how he fell asleep in the theatre.. :)

He was so selfless. He loved unconditionally. He cared for everyone. I remember how he would go and cook something special if my friends were coming over. How he would stay up and cook for my school event and ask me to go sleep first. How he knew I hated ironing my pinafore and he used to iron it for me everynight..

Oh well, the memories are many many.. Try not to think about them cuz then it leaves me feeling miserable that I lost a love so precious, so selfless, so pure - one that i would never ever again experience. Throughout everything, every hurdle, every step, every decision, I know he is next to me.

Rahul

This was just too sweet to miss

Spasticness at its peak

I HATE WEEDING!!! Have i ever mentioned how much I detest drowning in dust, having dust balls cling onto your clothes, feeling irritation in your eyes from the dust and watch your fingers turn black from the accumulated dust? Aaargh!! Im glad im done with it.. for now... Anyhow, this has been a pretty eventful week I must say... Getting to know people.. finding out stuff about people I already knew.. tonnes of work.. Haiz.. But somehow I think its been nice... I remember how i was so scared about certain things a week ago.. somehow I feel i can breathe a little more now as the days go by. And Im getting a little less tense and worried.. Just trying to see how things go. Anyway , Anan's birthday came and wemt. It was nice meeting the rest after some time and travelling back with kevin not knowing that the ones in the lorry were listening to all our conversations. Hahaha.. Met the girls at Causeway Point 2 days ago.. That was pretty fun. Went shopping for matching *---* and were very pleased with our purchase. Then we went for dinner very ambitiously only to have Vic insist suddenly that she wasnt hungry and we eventually ended up with chicken, calamari and mango salad(thanks sai).. Then we decided to take some pictures and as usual we never fail to embarrass ourselves.. We ended up going to admiralty for our shots. Of course, we managed to get ourselves a photographer. Actually, he didn't have a choice. (sorry.. haha) And we learnt that Sai can behave really drunk when she wants to (remember "Uncle GSS going on, no discount ah??"), that Vic sucks at scaring people, except in photographs, she is a pro. Lol... oh well, and ill never forget that Malay guy who kept saying "Shhhh!" It was such a crazy night and it's been a while since i laughed that hard. Thank you babies.. and thank you to you too, for letting us amuse ourselves although you had a paper the next day :)

It's Sunday... aaargh

I know your different. i know you're genuinely nice... But am i nice enough? That worries me..

Anyway it's Monday tomorrow.. *Groan* Such a looooong week ahead, with class visit of pre-schoolers and tonnes of weeding and counter and customer service and fake smiles and issues to handle.. Arrrgh..... I need a break.

Anyway here are some very random shots after i cleared the camera..Some snaps from work and of the heartthrob-Rahul :)

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Hello again

After what feels like eons, I am back. Haha, really been so caught up with work and projects and 'fun with tots' preparations and holiday specials and what-nots, till I hardly have the time for anything. Oh well, feels good to be off this weekend :)

After many many days, I finally managed to meet up with Ms. Vickneshvary. As usual, an outing with her is automatically packed with its fair share of embarrassing moments and terrible predicaments, right darlin? Haha. We went to City Hall with the intention of trying out the new LJ meal but ended up sprinting to Suntec instead cuz we realised we had made 2 poor souls wait for us. During this mad dash, we also managed to royally mess up technical issues as well. How we successfully do these things, I haven't got a clue. :) Since we were at Suntec, we went to Fish & Co. for dinner. What happened there, I don't even wish to mention. It would majorly spoil both our markets so it's better kept silent. *winkz*

The highlight was of course our sense of direction as we cleverly managed to lose our way between the towers and kept staring up at Toys R Us each time we tried a different route. That was completely exhausting. I think it's been a while since I had such a workout. Haha. It was madness. We just never could find our way. I had never been more happier seeing the Underpass to cityhall station, till today..

Although we were lost, being the productive souls we are, we did some productive things as well. :) This, Im very pleased about. We even managed to stop for ice-cream before finally taking the train back. Despite the walking and getting lost and tiring ourselves, I must say, it's been a while since I laughed this hard :)The craziness of today aside, i'm pretty disappointed and upset with the realisation of certain truths. Pretty angry as well. never ever wanted to be in such a position. :(