aargh

I'm so exhausted.. I can't believe what utter lazy bums some people can be and the extent to which people take advantage of services.. really, it's super annoying,especially when your the one facing these idiots.. Haiz, I don't want to look at another database for a long time..

I wish you wouldn't do this....

Panda

I have never felt more like a panda bear than today.. My eyes are puffed up and dark circles are obvious.. And Im soo sleepy and exhausted..

Thank you for staying up with me last night although you had work as well.. Thank you for not leaving me alone when I felt like crap.. And thank you for being so patient as I sobbed non-stop.. I really don't know how I would have handled it all otherwise.. It felt good being able to let it out.. Thank you.

And now Im going to try to get to bed. A terribly long tiring day at Jurong awaits me tomorrow. Haiz.

Grrr

When I ask You for a sign, it doesn't translate itself as give me a shock first thing in the morning from the most unexpected source. Nor does it mean add on to complications.. Haiz.. Someone needs to tell You that You're really not funny..

The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane

" And so Edward Tulane became Susanna. Nellie sewed several outfits for him; a pink dress with ruffles for special occasions, a simple shift fashioned out of a flower-covered cloth for everyday use, and a long white gown made of cotton for Edward to sleep in. In addition, she remade his ears, stripping them of the few pieces of fur that remained and designing him a new pair.
"Oh," she told him when she was done, "you look lovely."
He was horrified at first. He was after all, a boy rabbit. He did not want to be dressed as a girl. And the outfits, even the special-occasion dress, were so simple, so plain. They lacked the elegance and artistry of his real clothes. But then Edward remembered lying on the ocean floor, the muck in his face, the stars so far away, and he said to himself, What difference does it make really?Wearing a dress won't hurt me. "

That was a teeny excerpt from the book " The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane". Go ahead, laugh.. Yes, it is a kiddy book.. It's meant for lower primary or upper primary kids.. But the thing is, it's not childish.. The story line is sweet. I remember staring at Galvin when he recommended this book to me. Come on, a grown up, 29 year old guy telling me to give it a shot. He said it was different. And it is. It's a very moving story that revolves around giving and love and warmth..

Edward Tulane was a very selfish, self-centred rabbit made of China. He was a favourite toy of little Abilene who loved him a whole lot. But he never cared about her. All he cared for were his fine clothes and gold pocket watch and the admiration people showed when they saw him. He lead a life of luxury and indulgence as Abilene took him everywhere and sweetly reminded him that she loved him. However , a trip on an ocean liner and a terrible accident of being thrown overboard, changed Edward from remaining as his terribly selfish self. He gets caught in an old fisherman's net a year later and faces his first real emotion, fear.

Edward then lives with the old fisherman and his wife and takes on the identity of Susanna. The humble dwellings and the sweetness of the couple make him softer and warmer. However misfortune befalls him and he ends up in a garbage dump, with his clothes tattered and torn and is soon picked up by Bull and his dog, Lucy. He enters into a life loaded with adventure with his new name of Malone,as he travels with Bull and the other hobos. Listening to their campfire songs and getting familiar with them teaches him the art of listening to those you care about. And his heart opened up more than before.

After quite some travels with them, he is again tossed away in an accident and chances upon other people and ends up as a scarecrow tied to a fence, his worst humiliation yet. There he gets rescued by little Bryce who takes him home to his little sister, Sarah Ruth, who is dying. Sarah Ruth calls him Jangles and holds him cradled in her arms so tightly each day with such sweetness and tenderness that Edward's heart goes out to her and he starts wanting to help her and do anything he can to keep her. But one day she dies, and Edward realises he did indeed have a heart when he felt it break.

Bryce and Edward take to the road and Edward is thrown against a counter by an angry chef, which leaves him with a broken head. Bryce sacrifices the rabbit, the only memory he has of his sister when he leaves Edward with a skilled doll maker who could repair him. There, Edward sits on the shelf and ponders about his life, a changed rabbit, one with love to give and warmth in him, no longer the proud and selfish Edward he used to be. Many years pass and finally, in the shop of the doll maker, Edward is unexpectedly discovered by someone who has always loved him..

Very very touching and sweet when you actually read it.. Kate DiCamillo's 'The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane'..

Padawan

Ok guys, for those of you who were trying to help me figure this out.. Lol.. I gave up and I refused to ask more people..

Padawan :

" Whats's a Padawan?"
" Why you scolding me now?"

Source : Paul

"What's a Padawan?"
"Huh, is it an english word?"

Source : Sailaja

"Whar's a padawan?"
"its basically someone taken under the wings of a jedi knight or master and receives training"

Source : Jairaj

A student of the force. A learned youngin. One that has the ability to posses great power, but has yet to achive all knowledge of the force. One who wants to know more.

Until you are the master of masters, you are all someones padawan.

You are learning well my young padawan
Teach you I can not young padawan.
Too old to teach you are young padawan.

Source: Urban dictionary

• Jedi Student / Youngling / Initiate: An unofficial title, this refers to a child with Force potential. (Also referred to as "Jedi Hopeful.") More accurately, Youngling is Galactic Basic slang for children of any sort. At a very young age, the Jedi initiates leave their homes and are assigned to a group for training. If a youngling is not chosen by any Jedi Knight or higher ranking Jedi to be their padawan apprentice by 13 years of age, the youngling is placed into another, lesser role in the Jedi Service Corps. Depending on where the student's talents lay, this may be the Agricultural Corps, the Medical Corps, or the Exploration Corps. A youngling is given a training lightsaber, less powerful than an ordinary one. It is revealed in Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones that the children train in small groups under the guidance of a teacher, such as Yoda, before their master is chosen and they become a padawan. ^[6]

• Jedi Apprentice / Padawan Learner: A young Jedi that undergoes intensive one-on-one training under a Jedi Knight or Jedi Master after graduating from the academy. As tradition a padawan of any species with hair grows a long strand of braided hair that is finally cut off during the ceremony of knighthood, when a Padawan becomes a Jedi Knight. A Jedi may have only one apprentice at a time, and is required to promote the current apprentice before taking another. However, this idea was scrapped in a way by Luke Skywalker due to the severe shortage in actual Jedi, as mentioned in Star Wars: Jedi Academy.

Source : Wikipedia


A Padawan, Padawan learner, or Jedi Apprentice in Basic, was a child, or in some cases an adult, who began serious training under a Jedi Knight or a Jedi Master, chosen by the Knight or Master him/herself from the ranks of the younglings.

Padawans followed and helped their Master everywhere, unless seen unfit by the master, from simple tasks to dangerous missions, so that they learned from experience and personal guidance

Source : Paul and Wookieepedia-the Star Wars Wiki

After all the pondering, I end up at a Jedi-Sith Star Wars explanation.. Haiz.. Of all the things i ever thought I'd end up having to read about.. Haha.. Thanks.. Really.. :) It's all because of you.. Grr!!

Kelsey Briggs

If you don't cry after watching this video, I have no comments.. I am so angry at her mum for letting things get this far and the last photo of her dad after he came home is just heart breaking.. The punishment her step father got was nothing in comparison to the grief and pain he caused.. Really the poor girl had so much ahead of her.. Her dad would have had so many dreams and plans for her..

Im just very very disturbed right now..

Someone

Time seems to be flying by.. A bit too fast in certain matters and I'm scared..
I don't know what to do and i find myself constantly on the verge of plucking out each strand of hair from my head..

I wish it was easier..

I sometimes wish there was someone I could turn to without holding back, someone who would be there.. Someone who would never judge me, someone who would understand.. Someone I could cry to, someone who would let me.. Someone who would make me feel assured that everything will be okay, someone who would lead the way.. Someone I can trust with my life and someone who would stay.. Someone who would stick up for me and someone who would make my day.. Someone who would hold me and catch me when I fall.. Someone who will tell me what to do and put an end to this all..

Vivo with the Ladies

Yesterday was pretty nice.. Went to J8 with Vic to shop for Rethish's present (got him perfume and a PINK t-shirt.. yay!!) Then we headed down to Vivo to wait for Sai so we could go have dinner.. Unfortunately Naren couldn't join us and I was really really hoping to see Selva after so long but such a pity that he works odd hours.. Oh well.. Anyway we explored Vivo quite a bit and tired ourselves out big time and when we started freezing we decided to get Subway cookies and sit around till Sai came..

Once Sai arrived, we went to the White Dog Cafe where these sweethearts treated me to a birthday dinner and brought me presents.. I was really touched listening to the many plans they had been attempting- their Sentosa trip, (tt just freaked me out) , the greetings recording(that one really touched me), Sai's intention of secretly messaging someone to turn up, it was all so thoughtful.. I felt so loved and special.. After dinner we headed out to take pictures while carefully keeping an eye on our surroundings to ensure that there would be no repeated cockroach attacks.. It was nice just sitting around and crapping over dinner and taking many shots in various idiotic poses.. ( Sai, I still think you should have sat next to that guy and snapped a pic.. lol) All in all, I was glad I gave in to Vic initially on the Vivo plan and that we stuck to it yesterday cuz it was beautiful, though Vic, I cannot forgive you for preventing me from buying that chocolate from Candy Empire!! Hmph!!! That was just plain cruel.. It was in front of me..Those were some snaps from yesterday night.. As happy as I was, I won't deny that I was pretty disappointed.. With some things.. Some things that I wish were different.. I just wish they knew how much it would have meant.. Oh well..

Happy Thursday

Work was extremely tiring today... And the shoes were not helping in any way.. Woodlands to Bukit Batok and back to Woodlands on work is not funny.. I was so tired.. Thanks to Geeta who met me for lunch and ensured I escaped another lonely lunch hour.. Haha..

Today was a beautiful day actually.. Learnt quite a bit at work, although Roy highly traumatised me by making me do the public announcement over the PA system suddenly.. That was pretty scary.. But oh well, got to get used to it..

Met Vic after work today ( I won't forget how you made me run around the platform though..) .. Met a creepy guy tryin to sell insurance.. Went to a super crowded toilet as she balanced her make up pouch and my jacket while I quickly brushed my hair and powdered to try to look more sane.. The after work look is highly un-glam.. Babe, thanks for diligently following my list and bringing me what i needed minus the plaster.. Grr..
Met Vijay after that at Orchard.. It was a pleasant evening except that we were both drained out and quiet.. And I really couldn't eat my pasta.. It was mammoth sized.. And somehow I guess my panic hearing job descriptions kind of made me lose my appetite also.. I think this is the problem being female, and NOT the high heels, k?? Lol... thanks a bunch for the gift .. It was really sweet and Im touched at the effort you put in to pick it up.. Thanks..

The sweetest thing of all awaited me when I got home.. Litle Priyanka sweetheart actually passed my mum a present for me today.. She chose it and packed it herself complete with a little card with a heart drawing and 'Rashmi Chechi' written all over.. That was the sweetest thing I have ever seen.. And the sincerity and giving mindset that i child posseses is amazing..

Turning 23 from morning till night

God's gifts from heaven.. truly.. From dragging me out of bed in the morning, to scampering around my house, to getting me Mac breakfast, to dancing and make-up, to rehearsals outside the auditorium to pink flowers to a home baked cake with 12 huge candles , to laughing on stage with sticks, to barbequed stingray and Hokkien mee, to slacking together at night to hugs and kisses and lots of love all around.. You guys made me have the bestest birthday.. *big wet kisses* This is what friendship is about and in that sense, Im truly blessed..