High School Musical

Watched High School Musical yesterday again and somehow I really like these two songs alot.. I know many will disagree and opt for Breaking Free but I prefer the quietness of these songs.. Somehow the silence in these songs seem to say a whole lot more.. :)

Sat at Vivo

Watched Simpsons today!! Haha.. That was a pretty funny movie.. Especially their reference to the people watching and also the 'spider-pig' moments.. Well, I personally felt the regular episodes on TV were better but still, the movie was pretty entertaining and kept us laughing quite a bit.. :)


Today was also pretty fun cuz we all met up after some time.. The female cousins meet up pretty often but it was after pretty long that Rethish, Lavin and Sailesh joined us as well and although we kept just walking around the same place non-stop at Vivo, the company was really good and the day was filled with laughter and jokes and constant teasing.. :) The photo taking incidents were especially hilarious with Shiv and lavin constantly annoying each other.. haha.. And Geeta darlin, we'll carry out our picnic plan soon k.. This time, we'll make sure we organise and plan properly and not end up rushing through things like today :) ..

Some snaps from today...

Rethish refusing to smile for the camera while we snapped pictures Taken in the cab while trying to distract ourselves from the terrible traffic jam along the way.. Taken during a moment of inspiration.. I think the girls didn't give the boys a choice.. Haha Lavin being an idiot when the girls decided to take a shot together... Our pretty unsuccessful attempt at getting all 5 of us in the picture...Finally a picture with all five of the cousins in it, courtesy of a really sweet tourist :)The three brothers.. :)

Yay

Phew! It's finally Friday again..Like finally!!! After sitting down and staring at the clock ticking by the entire week, it's finally the weekend.. I'm glad I don't have to wake up at 5.30am tomorrow.. I am grateful though, to that one soul who calls me every morning at seven and accompanies me to work on the line and who constantly keeps me company through the day through messages.. I really wouldn't have lasted the week otherwise.. Thank you.. :) The silly things we came up with this week with regards to a wall clock and an SLR is something that should be erased from memory.. Haha.. And also I want you to know I appreciate the way you were there yesterday when I was feeling absolutely lousy.. For sacrificing your time for me and just listening.. I appreciate that.. :)

Going for Simpsons tomorrow.. Yay! Managed to get tickets for the afternoon show at Vivocity so we get to go to church first.. Still contemplating if I should go for 'Songs Of The Sea' at Sentosa with the girls.. Will be fun but I'm thoroughly exhausted.. Plus I have dance starting at twelve in the afternoon that would possibly last till six in the evening on Sunday.. So let's see about Sentosa I suppose..

I'm actually missing someone .. Someone who wouldn't even guess I was missing them.. Well, if you know who you are, good for you, otherwise, too bad *winkz*

*I Love Harry Potter* :)

Amusement

Just a little something I came across on the net.. Now you all know what to do.. You can all entertain me.. Haha.. leave this as a comment or sent to my mail k? Haha :)

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the
nextbutton to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN
NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

-IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU
SAY ?
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-WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE
YOURPERSONALITY?
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-WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL?
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-HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
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-WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
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-WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
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-WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
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-WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW
UP?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE
PERSON YOU LIKE?
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-WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
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-WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
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-WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
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-WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
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-WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
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-WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
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-WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
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Shivaji

Watched Shivaji today...

Haiz.. I'm depressed....

I want.. I want the love he showers on his wife... The way he adores her and understands her every action.. Very sweet!!

Shivaji was pretty entertaining, i must say.. Kept us laughing throughout.. (actually so did the lady beside us *winkz* ) .. The song scenes were so beautiful.. Shreya depresses me.. She is really too flawless and perfect.. It's extremely annoying.. Grr..

Haha, but nobody entertains me the way Ms. Vickneshvary d/o Krishnan can.. right darlin? (think 'she flies through the air with the greatest of ease.. ) Haha :)

It's Friday!!!!

It's finally Friday!!!!!! Yay!!!!!

I know this happiness is going to be extremely short lived since the weekend is so packed that is will be over before i know it.. but still it's nice to know i don't have to travel to the other end of the island tomorrow.. :) Work is really a torture.. Especially when you're left mostly to yourself since people always tend to move around in that place.. Thank god for the 'bubble' game that my aunty sent me.. That helps keep me awake.. And not to mention how a certain someone constantly checks on me to make sure I'm surviving after knowing of my constant dance practices and stuff.. Thanks.. I do appreciate it a lot.. It's nice hearing from you in between the day and knowing that someone cares about you or someone was thinking about you :)

I'm so sleepy actually but waiting for family to turn up.. Dinner gathering at my place in a bit.. Going to be extremely tiring running around getting drinks and dessert but at least i get to see the little ones.. :)

And you, I really hope you get home in one piece.. Please be careful and don't underestimate the extent of anger from someone who is extremely frustrated and annoyed.. Just make sure you don't get hurt and make this entertaining life story of yours revolving around your stolen handphone that got you in touch with the girlfriends of this guy who was having your phone, end in tragedy.. As serious as this issue is, I can't help but smile when i think about how in all this mess you could even figure out he was cgeating on both girls and how you managed to collaborate with the girls to track him down.. Really, i think we should write a play.. What say you? *winkz*

Tired tired tired

I think I may just drop dead.. Never have I been so drained out.. Really.. And I don't understand why all the dances come simultaneously.. when I missed performing and was super free, there was nothing.. Now, it's unbelievable.. i could choose to back out, but I love what i'm doing, just that it really tires me out..

Had dance class as usual on Tuesday but instead of ending it at ten like it's supposed to, he dragged it till almost 11 and by the time I slept was almost 2am.. Then I woke up at 5.30am and dragged myself to work.. After work, met Bhavani darlin for 'nimbooda' prac.. That was really good cuz she is such a fantastic dancer.. It's amazing the way she does it and you can't help but just sit and watch her expressions and the fluidity of her movements.. :) Then today I took half a day off to meet grandparents thinking that would be less tiring but walking around Tekka in the sun is pretty exhausting and then going home and changing into the saree and running to dance class again takes away half your energy and the remaining goes during prac where he makes us do the dance again and again till we can't even feel our legs anymore.. And I have gotten the bruises on my knees again from this dance, the same thing that happened previously, cuz he very happily made us do the rolling around step.. aargh.. But this should be an experience that's different since we all get to travel to Malaysia in a group, have fun together, get scolded together, dance together and basically bond.. In that sense I think it's worthwhile putting in some extra effort and suffering till august.. :) As long as we all don't embarrass ourselves.. haha.. Especially my class, since we seem to be really lost and screwing up and ending up making that dance a comedy routine.. But it's fun.. :)

Then there is 'Thiruvaathira', 'Oppana' and the kids item to think about and do.. 'Gangae' when we return from Malaysia.. I'm really draining myself out but I'm doing it for something I like.. i just wish I could take a break.. Just one day.. Go out somewhere.. Shopping or the beach or the zoo or the movies.. Anything..

And to all of you, whom I haven't been calling, I'm sorry... It's not that I don't care or can't be bothered to keep in touch, just that I really don't even have time for myself.. I am trying, ok.. haha.. Honestly, I miss you guys.. All of you and when I don't call, it's not that i've grown distant, cuz i still love u all many many.. :) Right now, all I wanna do is see my friends again, to just hang out somewhere and chit chat or even just stone, or just spend time with the kids.. Just sitting down and watching the movie 'Cars' with Ahmish on my lap today, made me realise how much i missed them.. He wants me to take them for that rat cartoon.. Told him I'd try my best and I hope I can..

Darlin Jen, Happy belated Birthday.. I know the card will reach you late but I hope you have a good time.. I'm glad I managed to call you and spend a few meaningful minutes on the line with you.. Felt really good after a long time.. Come back soon and I hope you had a smashing day! (the champagne made your day, that I know *winkz*) by the way, tell your parents I'm still up for adoption.. haha..*muakz*

Someone told me today that I should try to make a difference to my personality perhaps when I told them I think i tend to bore people.. I used to think so some time back cuz i tend to be really shy and introverted and stuff around people and very conscious of my actions. I never want to do anything that could have the potential of having me ending up feeling even slightly embarrassed.. And I guess this tends to make people tired of me and not want to hang around longer.. It's something I am aware of which makes me hesitant to meet new people.. i was just telling this person this as I mentioned I have flaws and was asked to list them.. This was one of the most major ones to me.. Cuz it's something in me.. It's something that makes me the person I am.. And something I can only overcome with the help of those around me.. If I feel they understand my insecurity and low self confidence about myself.. If i feel they will stick around patiently till I am ready to open up, but more often than not, it isn't the case.. Oh well.. I know it's something that could irk people but i'm helpless and lost cuz I really don't know how to be otherwise, how to be bold, how to not be shy, how to look people in the eye and talk unless I'm really comfortable with them, how to be daring and sporting and ready to try anything.. haiz.. Well, ok this is depressing me so I shall stop..

Anyway it's getting late and I'm exhausted.. I'll be back soon.. ;)

Harry Potter

Finally! At last I watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix!!! It's true that the book is always better than the movie but I was pretty happy with it except that it's so sad they grew up so fast.. I miss the old look Harry had.. The movie in itself was more dialogues than action and a bit draggy at certain parts, but overall, I was pretty pleased and Grawpe was just so adorable.. :)


I'm hoping to catch Transformers and waiting for Simpsons now :)

Something happened yesterday.. after a very long time.. tugged at something in me.. But I don't know why I feel so.. Or whether there is any reason to still feel so.. I want to know why.. I want to ask but I don't have a right to.. Not now anyway, at least not till I know it's ok... It's gotten too different now.. Oh well...

I wish

I just wish people would stop for a minute to consider what I want or how I feel and what emotional state i'm in once in a awhile and not treat me like a rag doll... That they would realise I have feelings and I have emotions.. That i do get confused and hurt and that no matter how much I'm willing to do things for people I care about, I have feelings too..

Weekend!!

I didn't go to work :( .. Woke up with a nagging headache and a terrible throat and a bad cough and flu and everything annoying rolled into one.. Whole body felt like jelly so I decided it's safer staying home than facing the possibility of fainting somewhere.. Well anyway, it was a much needed break I guess.. Been so tired the last few weeks with so many activities.. Managed to mix the kid's song at least.. That's out of the way for now.. Got to choreograph the remaining.. I was so much more comfortable with Babuji though, since the kids were bigger and it was easier coordinating them.. Oh well, it's a challenge.. :)

I can't believe I am missing Harry Potter for nothing now.. The evening plans have been cancelled and right now, I am free all day and I could have made it for the movie.. Such a waste.. Haiz.. I feel like kicking myself..

Anyway, hope your exciting bus ride was comfortable.. Haha..

My Dearies

I'm tired and extremely sleepy today.. All I did the whole day was sit and read my storybook and play Solitaire at my desk, yet I'm tired.. I think not doing anything is pretty tiring.. Plus, I was out yesterday evening so I guess that adds on.. But I did have a good time.. After work I rushed to meet Vic and we spent some time together at Mac.. Been quite a while since I saw her and although the duration together was short, it was sweet.. Really missed you darlin... :)

After that met up with the girlies.. Divyah Chechi, Shiv and Geetz.. Time spent with them always seems to pass very quickly... And they never fail to amuse me with their antics and animated story telling(right, shiv?) .. That felt good too.. Hanging out with them.. Missed them quite badly too, especially Divyah Chechi whom I hardly get the chance to meet when she does come down.. And I can't make it for Harry Potter with them tomorrow.. *sobs* Oh well, I hope you girls have a good time :)

I'm waiting for a call... Since 5.45pm.... :( was kind of looking forward to it after the nice chat yesterday.. Been a while since I had a long convo till that late.. :)

Anyway, Velliamma and Velliachan are down.. That's something that can always make me smile.. Velliachan is always someone warm, someone I feel at home with and someone I feel very special around.. Although I never see him often unless I go to KL or he comes down, and despite the fact that I hardly contact him and the only little conversations between us are when we meet, he always makes me feel adored and loved.. The way he takes my hand and walks with me in the evenings, the way he makes me sit with him on the swing when it's still relatively bright outside and we start talking till we realise it's gotten dark... The way he pulled me out to introduce to his colleagues and friends as his 'niece from Singapore' at his son's wedding reception although I wasn't even significant there.. The way he cares, the way he teases, the way he calls me at work to tell me he was thinking about me... Velliacha, you are much loved and i cannot show my gratitude enough for not missing my 21st and actually coming down from KL just for that day although it was a last minute thing for you.. :) Thank you for caring and loving and being there..

Oh and to you, thanks for helping me with the movie timings although your processing speed is pretty slow (think job at GV) *winkz*

Kiddies in my life

I don't know how sad it is that I have to be fed cake by a five year old and an eight year old.. Yesterday at Shreya's party, there I was trying to escape having cake and when Vaarsha insisted on sharing a slice with me, I agreed thinking that I could just feed it to the kid... But nope, that wasn't what happened.. She insisted on feeding me.. So there I was feeling extremely stupid that an 8 year old had to feed me when her brother, Ahmish, who is 5, was observing us very attentively.. And that boy takes one huge slice of cake towards me and insists that he wants to feed me as well and starts to get upset when I refuse and when a little kid sits in front of me and says 'please', I just cannot refuse him.. So there I was having two slices of cake stuffed down my throat by the brother and sister who were very entertained by the process of feeding me.. And what were the adults doing? Standing and watching with pleasure that someone succeeded in stuffing me.. They told Ahmish he should start with rice as well instead of just cake in the future.. I didn't know where to hide my face.. Haiz...

Dance prac today was pretty good.. The kids are soooo adorable.. I might kidnap them one day.. :) The way they hop and run.. It just makes you smile.. But it's going to be a while before we get through this dance.. Haiz..

Visited baby Nikkita at the hospital today.. Poor sweetheart is in the ICU one day after her birth.. Something about excessive water in the lungs or something so we couldn't get to see her or carry her.. We just saw her photos and she is soooo cute.. So chubby and adorable.. :) My little niece.. so sweet.. But poor Chechi seems to be in extreme pain.. Makes you think twice about having kids.. haha..

I'm exhausted and worried and tensed and disappointed and confused and curious all at once.. I need a break and i need answers and i need someone to tell me what to do.. Haiz...

Happy Birthday Aarthi

It's Aarthi darling's birthday today!! Sweetheart, I just want to w ish you a very Happy 20th and a fabulous year ahead.. All the best in everything you do and good luck in all the decisions you make.. :) I would love to have been with you on your special day but I'll meet you soon for dinner or something, k? Anyway, I want to use this opportunity to thank you for all you've done and for how you've never stopped being there for me.. For caring, for listening, for holding me when I cried, for wiping my tears, for sticking up for me, for putting your safety at risk in fighting for me, for everyway you've been there for me.. For the way you mingle within my family, for the way you help out with performances, for the way you fight with the other malayalees when you don't understand the language, for how you explore the auditorium with me while my grandma sleeps in the cupboard.. For making a lift scene with me during rehearsal, for dressing up for dance and staring into the mirror with me to complain about how stupid we look, for remembering my embarrassing moments and using those against me on my 21st.. For checking out Vineeth with me, for almost ending up dancing for 'Nenjangkootil' with me at the swimming club, for looking out for me, for plotting ways of murder with me, for setting up your secret detective agency for me, for never being afraid to be honest with me, for telling me off when you know I'm about to do something stupid, for bein g 'Amman' with me one moment, to a 'devil' the next for Raa Raa.. For not complaining each time I embarrass you, for already devicing schemes to royally embarrass me on my wedding.. Girl there are so many things I love you for.. And although the way we met was so weird, I'm glad for that day cuz I got the opportunity to be touched by an angel..

Waiting for our turn on the stage at Kallang Theatre... Also the day she ended up fighting with the organisers although she couldn't understand the language.. Also happens to be the day she started sprouting chinese suddenly and carried on a very fluent convo with the taxi driver.. U never cease to amaze me..

Aigiri Nandhini ... A dance we will never forget for countless reasons.. For acrobatic moves witnessed, for politics, for how they made us squeeze on stage because of the frames that were limiting our dancing area..





Andangkaaka... The dance we choreographed and perfected in a matter of 4 evenings.. The dance that we had fun doing.. The dance that Vinith complimented :)

Aarthi love, I love you many many.. *muakz* God bless !!

Weird day

How are you expected to react when one teacher comes and tells you that another teacher had a huge crush on you? In his words, 'He was crazy about you.. All you needed to do was give him a signal cuz he was afraid to approach you..' How I was supposed to react to that, I have not the faintest idea... It was the weirdest conversation ever.. Oh well.. These things will only happen to me..

On the other hand, dinner was rather pleasant.. Deep fried mushrooms (yes, I can picture Vasaantha's look of disgust), fries and baked rice with sticky chewy chocolate ice-cream to top it all off.. Three of us had a nice friendly chit-chat session , an open conversation aside from classroom conditions.. Felt nice and I'm glad in a way that we decided to meet, although certain parts of the conversations were pretty weird.. Haha.. Especially where I was told to talk on the phone to some random stranger who supposedly knew me.. That was very off..

Can't go to church tomorrow :( .. Somehow this time the 9 weeks seem to be a big time challenge as we can't seem to find a proper time slot to make it for mass.. Haiz.. But we will do it.. We have to and we do genuinely want to.. Somehow.. Otherwise I'd be feeling really guilty ( right, Sai? ) Haha.. Gotta go for dance class and later Shreya's party.. It's going to be one hectic day tomorrow.. Oh well, but at least it keeps me distracted and occupied.. :)

Crushed

You know how it is when you feel one thing but you got to pretend to feel otherwise.. When all you feel inside is disappointment and dejection and you feel utterly useless but you got to pretend that you don't care at all.. When you feel your self confidence falling, falling so low, yet you got to make it seem as if you are not affected in the least.. All so that the people around you don't feel bad and don't resort to blaming themselves for the way things turned out... That horrible feeling of being stuck.. Of not being able to talk to anyone.. Not the family cuz you don't want to make them feel guilty.. Not the friends cuz you are afraid you may just let go and break down or end up having them feel sorry for you.. When you want to just run from it all.. When you decide to give up on everything cuz there doesn't seem to be anything worth holding on to.. It's like a flower trying to grow tall and strong but it can't cuz the other bigger plants are all blocking it from getting sufficient sunlight.. Eventually after fighting hard to survive, it resigns to it's fate and ends up wilting.. Nothing can revive it again..

Super Drained

I have utterly embarrassed myself today.. They changed my table at work cuz I needed to work on the PC and I kind of depended on the clock in the computer to tell the time.. Stupid clock was slow and I didn't have a clue.. I should have realised when my aunty called me for lunch at 12.15pm(according to the stupid computer) .. But being the genius I was, I just thought she wanted to get to the canteen before the crowd.. (by the way, lunch is officially at one) And there I was sitting down, hard at work on the industrial hygiene procedures and coming up with a list of personal protective equipments and I saw the that it was 5 p.m.. I normally leave at 5.20p.m cuz my transport arrives at 5.30p.m. and I need the ten minutes to get myself to the main road.. Usually I'm the first one to reach the waiting area cuz my transport arrives first so you can imagine my shock when I get a call at 5.15pm( according to the stupid computer) asking me where I was and how come I'm not at the waiting area.. I was casually pushing in my chair and shutting down the PC when my aunty told me it was past 5.30pm and my bus was due any minute.. So left with no other alternative, I ran.. Ran like I've never run before.. Past building 2, past building 1, past all the engineers getting into their cars, past all the guys who always tend to tease and play around, past the security guards and out to the sheltered walkway where all the rest of the people who wait for the bus turned to 'cheer' me on.. They had stopped my bus (together with all the passengers who had boarded from airline house) and made them all wait while I ran the whole distance.. I cannot believe they were cheering me on.. Really, I wished I could have just disappeared somewhere.. So very very embarrassing.. Thankfully I didn't have time to figure out who were the ones who were observing my 'unglam' moments and my sprint to the bus.. Haiz.. I think I should get a watch.. Seriously...

I'm really exhausted.. Very, very drained out.. Waking up at 5.30am every morning is no joke.. Staring at Microsoft Excel all day isn't a joy either.. Not having internal e-mail is more painful cuz I have to manually hunt down the person in the building.. And that makes me embarrass myself yet again when it comes to having to visit departments I'm not familiar with, like staring at the closed shutters and wondering how to get through to the warehouse until some kind uncle escorted me through the side door( which by the way, was pretty near where I was standing).. :( Been really packed this week.. Monday was a long day, having to go to my aunt's parents' home to bring food for them since they don't cook for 16 days, then dance class after work yesterday that has resulted in me having to squeal in pain each time I stand or sit.. And to you, thanks for actually coming down and picking me up from class although you were tired out from having a paper and tuition and everything else.. I really appreciate it and I was glad you came.. Been a really, really long time.. Felt nice being able to just crap around with you and stuff.. :) Got to go to the temple tomorrow evening for the 16th day prayers.. Then on Friday, got to meet Mr. Veera after work.. Saturday is Shreya's party , still haven't bought her anything.. Saturday is also Aarthi darling's birthday and sweetheart, this time I'll make sure I don't do the castle card again.. *winkz* Sunday is back to dance practice, which reminds me that I'm yet to complete choreographing the kids' item.. Haiz.. Better get to it now, I guess.. Laterz.. :)

Sasi's meeting

Been quite a day.. Met Vas and Sasi for Sasi's birthday treat that's way overdue.. Had a really good time cuz it's been eons since the three of us hung out together.. And somethings never change - Sasi's ability to be so easily surprised and unaware of her surroundings.. Vas's way of introducing us to dishes and food items and plotting with me to surprise Sasi, when that doesn't require much careful planning to start with.. Haha.. Anyway had lunch at Sakura and ice cream and cake at Swensen's later that left us feeling extremely bloated the entire day... Felt good to be back to the way things used to be.. missed our days of hanging out during A levels.. Sasi's birthday got me thinking to the moments shared with her that would always be remembered fondly.. The way she almost fainted at NY bus-stop and giving me a panic attack, the way she never gives a damn about who is around and does exactly what she wants.. the way she gave my grandma a heart attack when she told her i was going to meet my 'Athai" (please don't ever do that gaian, darlin .. ) the way she pulls my earrings off my ears to try them on regardless of where we are or who we are with, the way we had to push our A-Level Geography notes to the edge of the table to prove to some 'small boys' that we were much older than them when they started passing us notes by shooting paper aeroplanes.. The way she plots surprises with me.. The way she always cares about what's going on in my life.. The weirdest things she can come up with.. Sasi, you're seriously someone who can always never fail to amuse me.. :) Hope you liked your present, darlin and we should do this more often, not you paying at Sakura but hangin out more.. *winkz*

The birthday gal with her presents Sasi, after we surprised her with cake

I had dance prac after that.. Haha that was quite funny.. I was expecting 11 - 12 year olds.. But I got a shock when i saw little kids.. And I mean LITTLE... I really was caught off guard and the song was too much for them.. Had to use words like 'aeroplanes' and 'scarecrows' to get them to understand the steps.. Haha.. But they are super adorable.. especially Priya.. That child better watch out before i bite her! :) Such a sweet and adorable kid with the brightest smile and the most cutest voice.. Haha.. Oh well, I will be seeing a lot more of her the next 2 months.. Anyway we eventually changed the song and now unfortunately, I have been roped in as well, so it's getting more stressful.. And I suck at this kind of choreography.. Haha..

Then I went to see Shreya.. That child is soo cute.. Been a while also.. Got to go do shopping for her birthday this week.. it's going to be another packed week.. Can't wait for friday.. :)