Awww

I'm speechless... Really.. Extremely touched.. How do you show how touched you are in such a situation? Really, Im still in disbelief.. You girls... You girls rock!!!


Sailu and Vic.. These two.. I'm like so amazed by the effort they took to make me smile.. These two wanted to surprise me with chocolates cuz I was upset about my loss of chocolates yesterday.. So what did they do? Vic kept asking me all the questions possible pertaining to my journey to dance class and found out that I change trains at Dhoby Gaut.. So what this angel did was go to the Fairprice at Toa Payoh to look for each chocolate I mentioned in my previous entry and unable to find those, made a trip to PS and went to Carrefour to buy them instead, realising that she could meet me on the way and surprise me with the chocolates.. But guess what!! My class got cancelled last minute and they were caught in Dhoby Gaut unable to meet me cuz I was making a trip to the airport.. And what did these two sweethearts do? They came all the way to my house after making sure I wasn't home and dumped a huge bunch of chocolates on my bed - Boaster's cookies, Oreo minis, Hershey's cookies & Cream, Hershey's kisses, Kinder Bueno, Cadbury milk chocolates, Van Houten white chocolates ... All those things I love.. And not to forget the lipstick that Sai threw in as well.. :) Really I got a shock when I switched on my bedroom lights and saw the spread on my bed... It was the most unbelievable and sweetest thing ever.. *muakz* Love you girls tonnes!!! (Btw, next time perhaps I should write about lost diamonds *winkz* )

Really, I feel so loved today.. Thank you darlings!! *big wet kiss*

Sunshine after the rain

To the girl who is struggling with emotions and responsibilities and coping with the heartache and fear altogether, you know who you are babe.. And I just want to say, you're one of the strongest I have ever seen.. Idon't think anyone else in your position would be able to hang in there without cracking this long.. I for sure, would have caved into depression. But you've proven your strength, your perseverance and you have no idea how proud I am of you.. Of the way you are handling the situation, of how you're a pillar of support to both of them at home right now and how you're coping with all the responsibilities that have been hurled at you. Babe, you're amazing and a really beautiful person.. *hugz* Just be positive. Don't ever let yourself fall cuz it's your strength that pushes them on .. Everything will turn out for the best.. No matter how cloudy or dark the sky and no matter how bad the thunderstorm, eventually the sun must come out. So hang in there ok? The Sun will come through soon and the dark clouds will drift away :) And sweetheart, you're not alone.. Every step of the way you have people who love you, holding you and helping you through.. If you ever feel you want to just let it out or you need a break, anythin at all, you know what to do, okay? We are with you in this and we will always be.. Love you loads,girl..

On another note, I'm annoyed with something.. I don't understand how someone can be part of the reason for a friend to screw up and use her as a motivation in the end.. I don't understand how these people define friendship or what exactly they thought they were doing in the name of caring for their friends.. Isn't it supposed to be selfless? Haiz.. I don't know.. I will never understand I suppose..

The convo with mum this morning has made me think.. Quite a bit.. Why is this topic constantly coming back.. Is there really something to it? Was there something about this right from the start or is it just my imagination? It keeps going away and then comes back again.. Time and time again.. Interesting.. :)

I Am Not Happy

I'm not happy.. This is not funny.. Really..

Anyone who knows me well would know I simply love chocolates.. And what should happen today, but the most unluckiest thing for a chocolate lover..

I was craving for chocolates the WHOLE DAY!!! From the time I stepped into the office till I left - and I was so depressed that my box of chocolates at work was empty. So my first task the minute I ended work was to get to Cold Storage and stock up on my chocolate supply.. So I left at six sharp.. Walked all the way through the drizzle to the bus stop to take the bus to Causeway point, boarded the extremely packed bus and made my way to the shopping centre and went directly to Cold Storage.. Once there, I walked right up to the Chocolate section, grabbed the Delphi wafers, got the mini cookies and cream chocolates and then ambitiously picked a large bar for the house and even a small hershey's cookies and cream to munch on the way home. I made my payment very happily and even decided to take the extremely long bus ride home instead of the train which would have been faster, just so that I could enjoy my chocolate.. I got into the bus and settled down comfortably, spoke to Geeta on the phone for a bit and put my hand into the plastic bag to take out my chocolate but GUESS WHAT?! I took the wrong shopping bag from Cold Storage!!!! (Vickneshvary, this could be because you were on the line then, you know!!) And of all the things that could have been in the bag, I find a bottle of fresh milk and a box of strawberries! Aiyo...... Very depressing la.. Really, I feel so cheated..

Once again, I repeat .. This is not funny.. Everyone I grumbled to, started laughing- Geeta, Vasaantha, Vineeth and my mum.. I don't understand.. It's really sad ok? There is no humour in this.. :( The only positive thing I can think of is that it could have been worse.. Especially if the bag contained Baby Diapers or ssomething.. Oh well..

Next time Im gonna make sure I open up the plastic bag and scan the contents inside properly first.. And Vic darling, i still think you had something to do with this.. Hmph!

Stressed!!!

Work is such madness today.. So much to complete and rush through and the annoying accounts are not tallying so we got to keep going back to it like about a million times and look through each and every number again to see if we missed anything.. Terrible.. I'm going insane.. I really want to get out of this place..Hoping to catch a movie later after work but that depends on whether anyone is free then.. *keeping fingers crossed*

Anyway, Grandparents heading to India tomorrow night.. Was hoping to print out the pictures for grandma before that but it doesnt seem to be happening.. Too short time to go.. Haiz.. Im contemplating if I should join them maybe in December or something.. Was having second thoughts about it at one point and was half hearted about going but now, somehow I feel perhaps a break is better.. Oh well.. Got to decide soon..

Geeta darlin, you gave me very exciting news earlier.. I'm excited for you.. Really.. Let's just hope the twelfth goes great!! :)

You know what I can't understand... I can't understand why I allow myself to grow so attached to people.. In the end it makes it extremely difficult for me when a distance is formed.. I feel lost.. I keep doing this time and time again.. Haiz.. I really wish I could be the sort who can just not care or bother about these tiny issues.. But I cant!!! Oh well, there is nothing I can do except be patient now and see what happens..

And to you, hope you're having a good time at your new workplace and you like what you're doing..

Happily ever afters

I'm exhausted.. My feet are killing me.. Whoever came up with heels for footwear should be stoned.. Aargh..

Anyway went for my appointment at Thomson Medical Centre this morning and I was proud of myself for not flinching at the sight of the needle.. Really.. It was an achievement! And I think I shocked alot of people by my sudden bravery.. :) Met Vic for a bit after that and roamed around Toa Payoh for a while checking out shoes and clothes and formulating masterplans.. haha.. We managed to tire ourselves out quite a bit before meeting Vasaantha to hang out and catch up on stuff.. That was nice and something that was pretty necessary, I must say.. Been eons since we just hung out to chit chat and share gossip and be the way we used used to be when we were in school.. :)

While talking to Vas I realised something.. How afraid and cautious we have both become.. How reluctant to open up and admit our feelings and thoughts.. How careful we are now when it comes to completely giving our trust to anyone.. How we will easily believe the words of a girl but endlessly doubt or ponder over the words that come from a guy.. I suppose it's all due to circumstances.. The situations we have been exposed to, the people we have seen get hurt, the things that happen, the way we see people treating others... The amount of tears, and lies and heartbreaks.. I suppose it feels like a never ending cycle.. It happens again and again and again.. A continuous sentence with no fullstop..

How can you be sure when you meet someone? How can you be certain he /she won't let go, that they will hold on with you and try to make it work the way you are willing to? How can you be convinced that they are not going to hurt you, that they are there to stay and will not walk out on you? How can you decide that this is it, that it's alright to give your trust, to leave your heart open with them and be sure that they will not trample all over it?How do you know they feel the same way about you as you do about them? How is it possible to be 100% sure? To make a lifetime decision with a complete stranger? You just feel it, I suppose...

We were talking about marriages.. How do you know that he / she is the one? How do you decide this is the one you want to wake up to each morning, go to bed with each night and do everything in between the day with? To live a life together, build a family together and live an entire lifetime with each other? It's life changing.. Pretty scary actually.. Getting into a new family, the worry of not being able to fit in.. Of getting approval of all those around you .. Of being a daughter to them instead of a daughter-in-law.. It isn't easy at all.. But I suppose that's the best part.. Getting past all this and being with someone you know you cannot do without.. Of reaching a point where you are able to adjust to any circumstance or discomfort because you love that person.. Of knowing you wouldn't have wanted it any other way...

Ultimately, it's all beautiful... But the path to that final destination is scary.. You are afraid of every bend and turn along the way and you have no clue what awaits you at the other end.. Oh well, I suppose you cannot do anything about it.. Just gotta wait till you meet your prince and hope your fairytale ends in a happily-ever-after, right Vas? *winkz*

Friday Friday Friday

I finally managed to say a firm 'no' to the job offer.. Advisor?? Haha.. When I found out it's selling insurance I almost fainted.. Me? I can't even approach people or talk to them.. How in the world am I going to convince people to buy the insurance.. So finally, today just before the third interview I managed to get my point across.. Yay! Only disappointment is that I liked the place.. I was pretty happy when I knew the area and I liked the people.. Oh well.. Too bad.. Good things never come in packages..

Went to catch 'Unrest' today.. It has given me unrest.. Haiz.. To you, thanks ah... Thanks for taking me for a horror movie and finding amusement in my traumatised states and laughing at me each time I crawl deeper into my seat.. Not funny, ok? I was scared.. And it was pretty disturbing... Anyway not a bad movie if you don't mind watching endless dissections of the human body..

I had a good time today.. Although my feet are so sore from all the walking today and running around and stuff, Im glad it happened.. Been ages since we met and it was fun laughing at our old pictures and hanging out together freely.. Thank you.. And thanks to Raja as well for the drive back :) That was pretty sweet..And next time you're coming to the esplanade! I must show you that place!!!! :)

I feel weird.. And in a way I feel responsible for the turn of events.. I don't know if you are aware of what is happening again but I hope you understand that I never had anything to do with this.. I respected the decision and I do understand what it is that you want and I have learnt to accept it but not everyone understands cuz they weren't there.. I feel something has changed.. In the way things were and in the conversations.. I wonder if it's real or whether I'm imagining.. I shall wait and see..

Loving a woman

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

To really love a woman
Let her hold you
Do you know how she needs to be touched ?
You gotta breath her
Really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
Then when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that you'll always be together

KL and back

What do you tell someone when they question you on why you don't consider a person as a potential partner when you know for a fact that that particular potential partner has a girlfriend and you cannot tell this to anyone else? Haha.. Weird... Oh well..

Went to KL for the weekend. Velliacha's condition made me want to just cry. He was in pain and lost so much weight and his whole body was swollen and he constantly kept having drips attached to him and god-knows-what liquid passes through him via a tube in his throat. It felt odd seeing him lying there alone, helpless and weak when normally he is the one who is so chirpy and glad when we turn up. But one thing I'm happy for- he seemed to take a turn for the better in the 2 days we were there.. He sat up alot more, spoke a lot more and started eating better.. Playing scrabble with him kept him entertained and awake longer and what touched me the most was the immense amount of love he had for me despite his condition, the way he kept talking to me, the way he teased me, the way he held on to me for support while walking, the way he still could ask me to find a job in KL and stay with him, the way he was so eager for little Rohit to play with me.. He is really, remarkable.. And he seemed to have improved.. Doctor said he could be discharged this week after a painful 12 days in hospital.. I really can't wait to see him up and about again.. :)

I came back in immense pain and nausea and stuff.. I really feel like crap but got to drag myself to SIFAS somehow.. Couldn't attend Vijayathasami prayers yesterday so I got to go today.. For Girish.. Oh well.. Hope I make it..

Anyway, got to get some things done right now.. Be back later :)

Mass Wishes

Ok, this is gonna be a mass dedication before I leave for KL tomorrow morning.. For all the birthday babies.. Starting in order...

This person I got to know in the strangest way.. Yet this person is also one I'm thankful I got to know.. From getting me coffee every lesson to sharing mee goreng with me at Newton.. From buying me chocolates to amusing me by canoeing in the arcade.. You're seriously the best.. the way you've cared when I was upset, the talks we had outside Westmall in the evenings, the way you spend two hours explaining concepts to me over the phone on the eve of our paper, the way you message me to show concern, the way you call me princess and let me fiddle with your phone.. Thanks for all the fantastic memories shared with you.. You're an example of sincerity and someone I know I can trust with my deepest secrets.. You know I do.. You never merely support me but also tell me if I'm wrong.. And that's what makes you such a great pal.. Selva, thank you for this beautiful year, for giving me your jacket when I was cold(although you hated the fact that I might spread glitter on it), for sending me back home, for calling me and staying on the line with me when I was stuck in the bus with a creepy man, for telling me you have something to do but returning with Hershey's cuz you know I love it, for voluntarily giving up your cigarette packet to me for confiscation, for calling me late at night to scare me with ghost stories.. For being the person you've been, although perhaps I should mention something about how you choose to 'abundun' us at times or the way you forget my name, right Selva? *winkz*.. I wish you the bestest of birthdays this year and hope the joy lasts all year round.. You deserve nothing but the best... *hugz* I demand that you find time for us soon.. And all I have to say to you till you do meet us is------- BEWARE!!! muahahaha :)

This next sweetheart is someone I have known for four years now but got much closer to in the last two years.. All through very religious Saturday church outings, and not to mention our rendezvouz sessions later.. :) From shopping to gossipping to sharing meals and struggling with extreme amounts of ice cream, this girl is the bestestestest partner.. I will never forget how we bought similar belts and shoes that we have never really used since and how we end up in Causeway point pretending to listen to an MP3 that was switched off, lugging bags of photocopied notes and blankets.. very unglam.. Or how we happily enter Swensons through the back door hoping to be unnoticed yet end up attracting more attention to ourselves.. Or the times we constantly exchange wardrobes and start wondering who has whose clothes or the many embarrassing moments during our dances where we make grand entrances on stage in front of a live audience 3 TIMES cuz the CD screwed up.. Babez, all this will ONLY happen with you around.. However these are also the things that make me smile each time I think of you.. You're like the sweetest, most loving soul ever and I love you tonnes.. Hope you liked the dinner and your prezzie is on the way.. *winkz* Anticipation is always sweet, isn't it? Haha.. Hope you had a fabulous day, sweetheart.. *big wet kiss*

This one is far away.. In Tekong currently.. Celebrating his birthday under the covers in his bunk.. Poor boy.. Bad timing.. But whatever it is, I wish you all the best and I'll pray with you that these 2 weeks fly by super fast.. You've been more than a brother, a best friend at times, a confidante, a very sweet well wisher and so many more things rolled into one.. You've stood up for my rights, been one of the reasons for me to smile on my 21st, surprised me when you considered dedicating the song 'Wonderwall' to me, you've taken care of me countless times-when I had the awful cough at work and you made me sit down and drink that disgusting brew which made my coughing fit stop for good.. You've also worried about me when I had gastric pains and was moaning and you so sweetly bought me horlicks and made me drink it up to ease my pain.. The times when you've followed me around, kept me company, listened to me and always wanted the best for me.. You have no idea how special you are.. we are all awaiting your return.. Come back soon, kid :) And Happy 19th!!

This next person... What can I say.. All I can say is I don't know what exactly happened the last few months.. It's been a whirlwind, but an interesting one.. In a matter of months, you've managed to understand me and know me in a way that has left me speechless.. The efforts you take to make me happy( think ordering a happy meal to surprise me) , the way you care, the way you listen to me whine and grumble, the way you take an interest in all that goes on in my life.. It's amazing.. I still appreciate the way you stayed back past midnight at practise after sending me home cuz my cousins were still hanging around there and you didn't want to leave them alone, or the time my heart stopped when I saw you walking to the front of the stage while I was performing, or the way you just turned up near my office and told me to get into the car and whisked me for an entirely unplanned evening and helped me get away from things for a bit.. I'm just glad for the day you took that step to ask me if I was the girl at the show.. Cuz otherwise I would have missed the opportunity of knowing an angel..I know I have been a difficult person pretty often but thanks for never giving up on me and still believing in me.. I hope you have a memorable birthday surrounded with your loved ones.. Happy advanced birthday!!

For Mr. Montero *winkz*

We are angel and princess;

We know we are the best..

We bring you laughter and joy;

And make sure you're a good boy..

We dress alike to embarrass you;

And we know a milkshake treat is long overdue..

Your cigarettes are at risk with us;

We may even take the pack and board the bus..

You may annoy and tease us many a time;

But you're worth more than every penny and dime..

We wanna wish you a happy birthday;

Let's meet up soon, what do you say? :)

*grin*

Something is not right .. It's like it's there but it isn't.. I feel a change.. I don't know if you do as well.. Things are slightly different suddenly but maybe it's for the better.. That's why I chose not to bring this up with you.. Everything happens for a reason, right? I hope so..


"Honey told to sugar-we are the sweetest in the world.. God laughed and said, "I think you have not met the person who is reading this"..


Ok, that was a forward I got from Bhavani darlin..

But the thing that made me smile was one particular response from a very very sweet person..

"... and the person who sent this as well.."

Ok, maybe it may not make sense when I post it like this but seriously that message made me smile.. Thank you.. :)

Surfaces

You know what I cannot stand? I cannot stand superficiality.. I mean I know everyone is different and stuff and entitled to their own prefernces and opinions and sets of criteria when selecting their partners and stuff but sometimes they fail to realise that others have feelings that get hurt..

I'm going to say a few things from a girl's point of view.. I know there are girls who give looks preference too but right now, I'm just going to talk about guys for a bit.. I've seen guys who get to know a girl online, talk to her, call her and stuff and really like the person she is and make her feel like he likes her and is interested in her and she starts feeling good and excited about meeting up or starting something sweet together and then, he moves away after the first meeting or something like that because she isn't pretty enough or hot enough or up to his standards.. I mean if you liked her before, it must be because she was genuinely nice, isn't it? Because you guys clicked and could understand each other.. Isn't that more important? Isn't communication and understanding more important than what your friends think of her, or whether your mates think she is hot or whether she looks good in short skirts or dresses.. Isn't what's inside more important cuz end of the day, that's what's going to remain.. Looks change, appearances will be diferent over the years.. Hair grows white and weight is gained and stuff but isn't it more beautiful to know that the person you are with is the same person inside.. The same one you fell for?

I have friends who give appearances a lot of priority but in the end, if they meet someone genuine and true, who may not exactly be the hunk or babe they had envisioned and dreamt about, I have seen them embark on a relationship together because of the fact that they make each other happy.. Beacuse they know that they cannot find someone else who may make them smile as much or show that much care and affection.. I have also seen people reject someone because they felt that person wasn't good looking enough and later regret their decision when they see that person with someone else..

I don't understand why a guy would be with a girl whom he claims to love and check out her cousin in front of her and ask her if she ever felt insecure around her cousin cuz the cousin was so hot.. Or why a guy would sleep around while in a relationship with another girl because the other girl was hot and he couldn't help it, supposedly.. Shocking? Well, it's not something I came up with.. These things really happen.. I don't understand why we live in an age of surfaces now.. I have seen people so dear to me cry or feel the pain when a guy talks to them nicely and shows alot of interest and after the first meeting, he just vanishes.. He could have had the decency to at least tell her that he doesn't think it's going to work out.. What happens to the girl? She doesn't take it as a blessing in disguise that she didn't date someone shallow, instead, she starts feeling extremely insecure and worthless.. She stops seeing herself as the gem she really is and instead tries to shy away from other guys for fear of history repeating itself..She starts to shut herself away from meeting new people and keeps wondering constantly what she did wrong or in what way she fell short of his expectations.. And then she starts to pick on things about herself.. She doesn't realise that the flaw isn't in her but in the insecurity of the guy who finds it so important that he has someone with him whom his friends think highly of or consider hot.. It stems from his need to be admired and envied.. The feeling of being with someone like that is no paradise, trust me..


On the other hand there are so many people I have seen, whom my friends at times have given negative responses to based on first impressions and who turned out to be some of the nicest guys around.. And there are also some guys whom they have considered dashing and really good looking, who ended up cheating on them or hurting them..


I'm not trying to say that there is a fixed inverse relationship between good moral character and looks here.. There are so many blessed with both out there..All Im saying is that it's unfair to make a decision based solely on impressions and opinions... There are many other factors that are important as well, such as trust, communication, the way you make each other feel, the commitment, the sincerity, the affections and so on.. It's not what your partner is to others that matters, its' what she is to you that matters and how she makes you feel that makes all the difference..


However all this is only my opinion.. Others will differ, I know.. I don't want to seem like I'm violently against anyone or anything..


Why I wrote this? Cuz I'm so annoyed with someone for hurting someone precious to me.. Again... Aargh!

Depressing Saturday

Firstly, for those of you who had a blast trying to convince me I'm wrong, it has been PROVEN WITH EVIDENCE that this is ORANGE!!! So there!! Haha.. K now I'm happy...

I'm supposed to drag myself to Tank Road Temple this evening for Navarathiri performance.. Sometimes Sir just doesn't realise that he is pushing us too far and expecting too much.. We haven't even recoivered from yesterday and the week of practising for the light up(which we screwed up eventually, thanks to him).. We just need a break.. Seriously.. And today he wants us.. Next week on Thurs and Friday at two other temples.. It's tiring.. And we cannot be leaving the office like that for dance.. They will tell us to stay home and continue dancing.. Haiz...

Anywae we were supposed to start practise for Deepavali show today but guess what, Admiralty shelter has removed electricity as well.. Now the only hope left is Hougang.. So instead I'm going to meet Vas.. Been a while since we promised to take her out and havent been able to do it.. Finally... Hope she likes what we do today :)

For some reason, I feel lost and down.. I don't know why.. Unexplained emotions.. Cannot figure out why exactly but I just feel so negative.. So willing to let go and give up on everything.. Think I have been thinking back on certain things quite a bit.. I shouldn't but it isn't easy.. Oh well.. Anyway this is a little something I found on someone's page which I thought was pretty sweet.. :) Ciaoz!!

Beautiful

From the movie Umrao Jaan.. I think I like these videos cuz I actually watched the movie first.. It's beautiful.. :)

Working...

So here I am, sitting in the office with such a terrible wuzzy feeling in my head after staring at all those numbers in the statement of accounts.. I feel like plucking out my hair each time the accounts don't balance.. I hope i don't have to do this again anytime soon..It's maddening..

Anyway I think my colleague is pretty sweet.. She watches out for me.. Tells people off if they try to make use of me when I'm sitting around without work.. Finds a table for me in the canteen and ensures that I buy food first, that I'm comfortable and stuff before she goes for hers.. And today they had some celebration in the pantry cuz someone sent in cakes and puffs.. Everyone was invited up but as usual, I didn't go.. Why? Cuz I am still unfamiliar with the people and i feel lost half the time.. So I carried on with my work.. But then my phone rings and it's her asking me if I want cakes or puffs.. I told her I was fine and din't want anything but she came back with both.. Isn't that sweet? At least one bright spot at work.. :) I think I shall buy more happy meals for her sake..Haha..

I was thinking about stuff today.. Read your messages all over again.. It's wrong to be keeping them still but I can't help it.. I can't help but wish it was different.. Especially after reading the last few messages.. There was something there.. Haiz.. This is what's meant to be...

EXHAUSTED

I think I may drop dead.. I'm exhausted.. Dance class after such a long break is not a good idea.. My knees are bruised again.. Grr!!! We are once again ready to embarrass ourselves in front of a huge Indian population.. I should probably start praying for us all.. Haha..

Anyway been a very tiring day.. Going to stone.. Write more later.. Nightey night.. Geeta darlin, you probably won't be able to sleep tonight.. You know why, right? Haha.. Too bad.. Your loss.. *winkz*

Drained Account

I think i have drained part of an emotional bank account.. I think it's just me... I never know what to say or do, do i?

Birthday Again :)

So it was someone's birthday yesterday.. :) Someone had a 21st and I hope it was a blast and one that you'll remember for a long time to come.. Sorry I wasn't there.. You know I would have loved to be there but at the same time, you also know why I wasn't.. That's the speciality we share.. You will know exactly why I do certain things without having the need to explain.. You don't doubt me.. You understand why I do what I do and I can tell you things openly without fearing what you'd think or say.. For all that and more, thank you.. Here's to many more years of friendship..

I still remember how I first knew you.. How I couldn't stand talking to you online cuz all you ever did was pick squabbles with me or call my brother and ask him to inform me that I was going to screw up my 'O' Level papers..I remember how I used to be so annoyed talking to you and how often I used to wonder what I did to you that you were so intent on fighting with me.. And then one day, things changed and we decided to be civil and that made all the difference cuz look where it's brought us.. :) You're one person who has seen so many sides of me, who has seen me change, watched me grow and been there through the years and stood by me through my tears.. I still remember how lost you were when I flopped down on the stairs at Dhoby Gaut MRT and started crying and all the people around kept giving you looks thinking you were the cause of my distress.. I also remember how you kept in mind that I love Hershey's cookies and cream and got one and sent it for me through my brother on my birthday with a tiny card( i still have that card btw) I remember the time you agreed to come help me out for a photo shoot and how you never complained despite the embarrassment we put you through.. haha.. Or the time we had the telematch and we influenced you to sign up for the balloon bursting game.. And how you got us both lost at Tampines after the show by getting me on the wrong bus and even being delighted by the fact that the bus was empty ( the bus was empty cuz we took it from the wrong side.. thanks ah...) And how will I ever forget the times at BK and watching 'The Tale of Two Sisters' all the way till the end only to realise that we both hadn't a clue as to what the plot was about.. The memories with you are so precious and I'm glad for the friendship we share.. For the times you call me, the times you agree to pick me up from dance class, the times we PLAN to meet up and the laughetr you bring to my life.. Thank you for being the person you are and thank you for letting me be who I am when I'm around you.. Happy Birthday, darling! You know who you are.. Hope you had a great party!! By the way, you owe me an evening.. I'm taking you out.. Let me know when, ok? :) *hugz*

Finally...

A not so clear version... But the other one is too big to load.. Wasted.. :(

30 Sept 2007

I finally managed to get Geeta to send me the pictures.. So for the rest who want to grab it off the page, here goes.. And for one nut who wanted a full length pic to see properly, here it goes too.. Haha..

The table setting .. For which we all had a part to play.. nice?

And that's the pretty pretty doorgift
The hunks
The ladies
The hunks and the ladies...Our DJs for the night...With Ravin and Sailesh.. They look sooo grown up...Shivani dearest and me

Vicknesh and I

Showing some lurrvveeee...
I had no idea what the cake looked like till the photo came out.. Oops!
Ariyaathe, ariyaathe......Dailamo duo...
Dance by little Surekha and SugithaThe boys all ready to performThe girls all setThe greens...The purples...The reds...The yellows...The gang...Uh-oh...Take a bow..

A Dedication to Vas

Today is a very special day.. The day a really special angel was born.. An angel whom I cannot do without.. An angel who has tuaght me so much, on giving, on selflessness, on friendship, on sincerity.. The angel whom I can always count on no matter what and never hold back from.. Vasaantha darling, happy birthday!!!!

I am so sorry I won't be able to hang out with you or do something really special for you these few days cuz of all the family functions and occassions but darling, you have no idea how badly I want to make this as memorable for you as possible.. And I hope the small little something planned out for later will make a small difference to your day.. :)

Vasaantha, what can I say.. I was just telling Lavin yesterday when I thought my slipper was going to snap, how sweet you were on a day my slipper did really snap.. Nobody but you would agree to leave your house, go to my house, collect a spare pair of shoes for me, take the train all the way down to Dhoby Gaut, right up to STansfield so that I can wear comfortable shoes back.. Nobody but you would still talk to me despite how I left you stranded helplessly with a huge grasshopper in your hair.. Nobody but you would feel my pain to an extent as to start crying with me at Burger King.. Nobody but you will end up acting like a total fool with me in Admiralty while on a mission to deliver summons.. Nobody but you would allow my little cousins to chase you around with a bat or demand that you braid their hair or threaten you about washing your hands.. Nobody but you will buy me a whole bag of hair cosmetics just because I mentioned that I thought 'Beer shampoo' was good.. Nobody but you will be so patient with all I do and have to say.. Nobody but you will take me to Thai Express for a treat, tell the waiter unnecessary information about how the Man-U collectibles in our bags were for our 'ex-boyfriends' and then aftre the meal, realise that you don't have cash and leave me standng there like an idiot while you go find an ATM.. Nobody but you will make my 'fish incident' such a huge affair in the whole coffe shop till they volunteer to sponsor my medical bills.. Nobody but you will agree to mop the shelter cuz we all complained it's dirty.. Nobody but you will plot idiotic moments with Sasi to make my day (think abandoning me at Bugis) .. Nobody but you will keep a pathetic drawing I did 2 years ago to make into a birthday card for me... Nobody but you will make me smile this way as I recount each and every incident together that has formed a pleasant memory in my mind.. You're the bestest friend, sister, confidante, nut case, girlfriend and everything else nice rolled up in one that anyone could find.. *muakz* HAPPY 22nd, baby!!!

P.S. You wanted cable car last year.. It was possible.. Hiking this year.... Erm.. Erm.. Let's not even go there.. I can imagine us walking for 3 mins and then hoping some vehicle would take us the rest of the way.. Let's not be too ambitious k? *winkz*

Sunday's Dance

So, the dance was finally over.. Well, actually to be really honest, Im pretty sad about it.. Although we were each grumbling and wailing about backaches and hip dislocations and sprains in every joint, now that it's all over, I feel like something is missing.. From seeing all of them for like so many days consecutively and hanging out together almost every evening till late, sharing food and drinks, laughing together, joking together, looking forward to seeing each other again the following day, it's all over now.. It went well, we were all so happy that day, the performance was cute and all loved it.. I mean it was spastic but that was the cute part.. :) I'm gonna miss Admiralty shelter, my favourite position between the pillars,the walks to McDonalds and running away from soccer balls that somehow seemed to know our whereabouts perfectly well.. I'm gonna miss Hougang shelter too, for the comfortable perch I found there in between 2 structures, the way we were crawling on the floor there, the way Velliamma used to bring us sandwiches and cups of drinks.. Most of all, I'm gonna miss the people.. All those who were somehow a part in some way to the practices.. Shivani, Geeta, Menuri, Sudhin Chetta, Ravin, Sailesh and Vicknesh for the memories you guys gave me with that dance and all the laughter we shared.. Not forgetting Ezek for helping, Lavin for being a nut case who came to laugh at us and offer company and also Vimal, for being sweet enough to loan us your speakers each time and also make sure we were okay and making each practise special.. Thank you to all of you.. *hugz*

I don't have the dance photos yet.. But I have some snaps of practices.. Here they are..

The boys... Sailesh, Ravin, Sudhin and VickneshYet another all guy shot..Geeta showing some love.. *winkz*

Geeta and me after dance
Vicknesh's jumpThe group...Ravin clinging on for dear lifeThe girls.. Tired out...
The whole group.. minus Menuri who came late... :)

Take care of my eyes...