Aunties

I think I have been spending more time at the shelter than I do at home these days.. As weird as it sounds, I think I'm going to start missing that shelter, for several reasons actually.. :) Yesterday was madness though.. I reached the shelter at 6.15pm but the guys only arrived at about 9.00pm and then prac started.. And right now, my back is killing me.. Neelu's massage didn't seem to work much.. Haha, poor kid.. She attempted a massage with an injured finger.. Oh well.. Hopefully the pain subsides..

You know what's annoying? Seeing a bunch of aunties around in a group... No, actually it isn't seeing them, they are all really nice aunties.. The problem is when you make an entrance right into the midst of all these aunties.. They start calling you to sit next to them and start asking you what you're doing now, where you're working or what your last qualifications were.. They ask you how old you are and you can actually see them formulating plans and rapidly processing this new found information at the back of their minds and you know immediately that your reaction should be to run.. Cuz you can tell what else will come up..

It's not that I'm against all this.. As much as alot of people feel that arranged marriages aren't the best and that they would all prefer the magical feeling of being in love and getting married to 'the one', I personally don't feel it's all that bad.. I mean, of course marrying your one true love is ideal and all but I think there is a different kind of beauty in an arranged marriage.. There is a new beginning throughout the process.. There is something new you learn each day and I like the feeling of getting to know that person with the approval of all around you and trying to see how you both fit in together.. I like the excitement of trying to figure out this new person who is suddenly a part of your life, whom you suddenly unconsciously begin to think of when you make plans, when you make decisions, when you think of home.. Oh well, I suppose I sound slightly crazy right now.. haha.. I'm not against this.. In fact I'm really agreeable with all this but not now.... It's just too much now.. i was okay with all this arrangements the last few months but right now, I don't know why but I keep pushing away the proposals.. I just lost the interest and I just want a break.. The aunties somehow don't understand it.. Oh well, as long as they still listen when I say I'm not interested, all is well I guess.. :)

Anyway, got to leave for dance now.. Sad, but true.. On a Saturday morning and perhaps later if everything works out fine, I'll go to SGH for the blood donation, though I still don't understand how O+ bloog group has a fall in reserves.. Weird..

GIRL

It's pretty small and blurred.. Click on it to see it in full :)

Time not moving

The office can be an extremely boring place, especially when all you look at are stacks and stacks of customer names and invoice numbers.. Oh well, when you commit to help, you cannot complain I suppose.. Another one and a half months more!!! Lavin is leaving this place tomorrow.. There goes my lunch partner and I will not lunch alone.. Haiz...

Going out later.. That's like the only thing I'm looking forward to right now.. But that anticipation seems to make time go by soooo slowly.. aargh!! By the time it's six, I think I'd be dead.. And my back is aching really bad.. DAnce prac is really fun and full of laughter and definitely something I'll miss when this week ends but it's also causing loads of injury.. Geeta's head, Shiv's thighs and now me..Yesterday's dance practise has damaged my back.. I couldn't move yesterday night at all.. Every movement resulted in a sharp pain.. Oh well, hopefully it gets better by tomorrow's prac.. Otherwise it wouldn't be pleasant at all.. Haha..

Haven't called Neelu to check on her yet.. Yes, yes, very irresponsible Chechi, I know.. But I've been so short of time myself.. Hopefully uncle and aunty return by this weekend..

To my darling who is afraid and worried now, just remember, I'm a buzz away.. I won't promise to give solutions but I can stand by you through every step and offer a listening ear.. So cheer up baby, and let's get past this phase together,k? *hugz*

Missed

I miss Selva.. I honestly do.. Miss him cowering under an umbrella during storms, miss him bringing me tea, miss him buying chocolates, miss him explaining concepts to me over the phone so patiently for hours, miss him asking me to take medicines, miss having him call me at night to tell me ghost stories, miss him allowing us to play with his hair, miss the rides on 61 with him, miss watching him canoe, miss him teasing me, miss finding sentimental quotes in Popular with him, miss hearing his 'Good afternoon, one and all'...

Selva darling, I don't know if you even visit this page anymore but I just wanna let you know that you're very dearly missed..

Saturday Rush

My Uncle is currently in a hospital in China in the ICU ward.. What exactly happened, we are not sure.. Aunty has just flown down tonight.. I really hope it's nothing to worry about.. He should probably come back with her within the week.. Poor Neelu must be really upset to have both her parents away at the same time.. Could tell she was upset but she was a good girl to not cry cuz if she did, my aunty wouldn't have been able to hold it all in.. I shall take her for Ratatouille tomorrow no matter what.. She deserves it ..

Had a short dance prac earlier on.. Completed the dance but still needs polishing especially the couple moves.. Haiz.. And talking about the dance, I think I cannot show my face around Hougang for a while considering how we embarrassed ourselves in front of the other dance group, who probably at this moment, think we are all from Yusoff Ishak Secondary School.. Oh well...

Sailu baby, Im so sorry about the last minute cancellation of plans.. I really hope you understand why I had to... and Bhavani dearest also, Im sorry I couldn't carry on with the convo .. Was actually balancing the phone on one year and unpicking stitches from my skirt with the other.. Will meet you soon ok.. Anyway your trophy is still with me.. Haha.. Not forgetting Geeta darlin.. haha.. Sorry I didn't tell you earlier the book was enormous.. :) Thanks for going to Orchard for me.. Muakz!!

I never really believed Angels existed.. Till today.. Never believed I could feel so special and cherished till today.. I'm blown away and I'm really touched.. Thank you.. You know who you are..

Orange!!!

This is orange....

This is pink....

Right?
I know i was right yesterday but three people refused to agree that orange was orange and kept arguing with me that it was pink...Arrrgh!!!

Oh well, anyway at wrok right now.. waiting for Lavin to reach so that we can get some lunch.. I'm so hungry... Everyone here seems to be having the flu.. You can hear synchronised sniffing and alternated coughing.. Horrible... And did I ever mention how much I hate numbers???

We caught Underdog yesterday.. It was okay.. More of a parody of movies like Spiderman, Superman and Lady and the Tramp (the spaghetti scene).. The dog was pretty cute thoough.. And I loved Polly, somehow...

Got to drag myself to Admiralty for dance prac later.. Ezek's choreographing.. So you can just imagine the energy level required.. Haha.. I shall pray now..

Nightey Night

Yet another day almost over .. But this week seems to be seriously crawling by... It's painfully slow.. Can't wait for the weekend again.. :)

Went to Gaya's place yesterday.. Her grandad passed on and I can just imagine the way the family must be handling it.. I have only had limited conversations with him, in fact very few words were exchanged.. Yet the night I saw him in the ICU, I could feel the back of my eyes burning.. Seeing him that way was something that was not easy to look at and if I felt that way, I can only imagine how much harder the others in the family would have found it.. Im just so glad that I saw grandma calm and composed and strong.. And Im glad the others were taking it well as well.. Handling a death in the family is never an easy thing but the fact that they pulled through it together and managed to compose themselves and carry on with things yesterday evening was a good thing.. Guys, I know it is not easy but at least be glad for the fact that he is in a better place now.. Away from the pain, away from the suffereing, away from all the tubes and machines.. He is somewhere beautiful and safe, away from all the misery and he is looking down watching over you guys.. Smile with his memories and cute actions that would always be remembered fondly.. *hugz*

Lavin is not coming to work tomorrow... Haiz.. My lunch will be an issue now.. I'd probably have to bring something cuz I refuse to parade in the canteen alone tomorrow looking for a seat and all.. Poor boy looked ready to collapse today.. And I do hope that the IT guy is ok.. He fractured his finger today at the office when the door slammed against it and he started bleeding from the deep gash that resulted.. All I can say is 'Ouch!!" and double 'Ouch!' when I heard about how the guys around him squeezed that area to try to prevent the bleeding.. I think I would have fainted.. Oh well, hopefully it's better now..

And you, that was madness.. Such a mad rush.. And I can't believe you actually flew down.. Yew Tee to Admiralty in ten minutes! Record breaking.. Thanks for flying me home.. You always do something out of the ordinary, something completely unexpected and you do it genuinely.. Thank you.. But next time I think the tension might kill me .. Haha.. :)

Aches and Pains

Just got home from dance practise.. I'm extremely exhausted.. 6.30pm to 10.30 pm - Four hours of crawling around and jumping around and falling and being caught... That was really pretty tiring cuz it's after quite a while that we are doing a mix dance again and it's hilarious cuz it's among the cousins and we have all never danced together before and some have never danced before.. So it's really an interesting situation and loads of fun.. :) Got to really work on it alot more.. Our memory spans are really terrible and we are short of time so we need a miracle to pull this off.. Haha..

Anyway, it's Ahmish's birthday today and the kid's party tomorrow.. Back to drawing tattoos and face painting for me.. Oh well.. I just hope he loves his new remote control car and the 'Mr Bean teddy' he asked for :) .. Plus it's grandparents' wedding anniversary tomorrow so that's double the celebration and possibly a reason for us all to gather for dinner at night.. Yay!!

Someone went to watch Ratatouille today.. Aargh!! I so badly want to catch it but i have no idea when I will go for it.. Really short of time..I hope I can by next week..

Oh well, time to head to bed.. My whole body is aching so badly.. Going to try to get some sleep.. Laterz..

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Did I ever mention that life can be pretty unfair?

What you can have, u somehow cannot get and what you can get you somehow cannot have?

Why is it that when you see a forked pathway ahead of you and the obvious path you should take is the one with the perfectly mowed lawns and pretty blossoms lining your way, somehow you end up taking the one that's uncertain with tonnes of bends that prevent you from knowing what lies ahead...

He really think he is very funny.. You're not..

For a sweet little monkey :)

This is what SOMEONE made me do when I said I was stoning at work... Haha.. The rare few times I stone and u make me do this.. Enjoy.. Muahahaha...

Just For You..

I used to sit all alone,
Till I met this bag of bones..

She was a mutual friend,
Someone I had bumped into now and then..

She extended her hand in friendship,
And there started a crazy but beautiful relationship..

We hung out alot together,
Be it sunshine or rainy weather..

We sat through many lectures,
Ensuring the safety and continued existence of our markers .. (haha u know what im talkin abt)

Every outing required snapping pictures,
Even if it meant moving dustbins and other fixtures..

We once had pigeons chase us,
And we ran and created such a fuss..

She used to eat nothing but chicken rice,
Everyday at the same shop for the same price..

She ties ballooons to my chair,
To embarrass me, she has such a flair..

She has her methods of blackmailing me,
And she always does so with such glee..

Although with her, life's never been the same,
Without her in my world, It'll surely rain..

She's sweet, warm and loads of fun,
Baby girl, You're all things nice rolled into one!!


K this is why I never write poems.. Haha...

Tuesday surprise

I was a bit lost this morning.. The smses that woke me up today at 7.30am got me feeling pretty uneasy.. There was this feeling of something that could change.. The fear of adapting.. The feeling o losing something that was always there, that you felt would always remain and that you'd gotten really attached to and comfortable with.. But I guess you got to accept what comes your way and be happy for the way things turned out for the sake of the other person.. I am genuinely happy for you.. Serious.. :) never heard you so delighted and cheery before.. It's nice.. Congrats!

Work was extremely draining today.. Didn't have a single free moment.. I couldn't wake up this morning and ended up late for work. At five forty five I finally finished my tasks for the day, from hnting for invoices to chasing the appropriate people till they handed me the invoices, to extremely annoying data entry and calculations to issue cheques.. Oh god.. Terrible... After work however, things were different.. I was whisked away with no plans, no decisions, nothing.. Just called away on a random journey through Mount Pleasant Road, Mandai and Seletar... We didn't do anything that was planned, but just drove around randomly, faced a whole entire community of dogs, stumbled upon some really 'ulu' cafe and climbed 86 spiral staircases to just talk, count the stars, watch the aeroplanes and just enjoy the peace and serenity of the place... But I had a good time.. It felt like a get-away from everything.. Away from the noise, the stress, the work, the expectations, everything.. Thank you...

I want my ice-cream.. Haiz.. Been craving since yesterday.. Oh well.. Soon.. Maybe after Ratatouille.. :)

MONDAY!!

It's Monday.. That is very depressing.. Knowing I have a whole four more days to go.. That is even more depressing... Aargh.. I am dreading each day at work considering the workload..Oh well, I committed to it so I don't have a choice I suppose..

Went to Causeway Point today after work.. Met Vas to help her get stuff for her attachment.. I keep saying Northpoint is the best but SOME PEOPLE keep insisting otherwise.. At least people in Northpoint don't traumatise you so much.. The weirdest thing happened today.. Some guy approached us from behind and tapped me on the shoulder like he was my best friend and asked for my number saying his friend has seen me around.. I was in shock and said no and he insisted for a while till we walked off from him.. It's not about asking for the number.. These things happen but I have till today seen guys who say 'excuse me' or who just use words to put across their suggestion.. Never have I experienced such bold shoulder tapping... Haha...

I think I need to strike the lottery.. Looking at the shoes and bags and clothes everywhere gets me very depressed when I take a look at the price tag after finding something nice.. Very sad.. Haiz...

Anyway, Im extremely sleepy and tired.. Got to try to get some sleep.. Tomorrow is going to be another loooong day..

They called it off.. For various reasons.. Somehow in this case, Im not upset.. At all.. Really... I am so numb to it all and don't even seem to feel the same excitement I did before.. Haiz.. Just got to wait and see... Time should cure everything..

Absolute Randomness

Been a few days .. Busy busy week...Work is so tiring.. I practically have to drag myself through each day.. The workload is madness and I cant wait for Jocelyn to return from her maternity leave.. I hate the invoices and data entry part of things. Even climbing the cupboards to search for old invoices seemed the most happening of my tasks.. Oh well.. Thank God for Lavin who keeps me company for tea break and lunch and Vimal who keeps checking on me through the day.. I really would be asleep on my desk if not for them both.. Thanks guys.. Although there are some moments where I would like to smack my head because of Lavin especially like how he thinks the lift would automatically know which level his highness is travelling to or the way he thinks the whole world is dying to see him during lunch break and he insists on spending precious break time changing out of his overalls cuz they aren't glamorous enough to be seen in... Grr!

Anyway, I finally handed my tuition over today to Shiv darling and I know I can be assured that she will give the child the best she can.. So i don't have to worry.. Met Vas yesterday also after a really long while.. Actually not very long, but felt like it was.. And to Sasi, I have something to say.. "Eh, thanks ah.. Thanks for telling me.. I almost fell out of my chair.. Anyway, congrats girl.. I'm happy for you.."

Went for Baby Sonia's birthday a while back.. Going there and watching Sreeya playing in front of me tugged at something inside.. I didn't want to get too near her cuz it brought back a memory of four months ago..The last I saw her was then at causeway point and she was part of the reason why I felt the way I did about things.. And it was pretty difficult when aunty asked me to help to feed Sreeya the cake cuz she was playin by my side.. Somehow it felt so odd and haiz I dunno...

One of my darlings is upset, I can tell.. I wish you would talk to me about it or talk to someone.. I don't like knowing you're upset and feeling helpless that I cannot make a difference to the way you feel.. Baby girl, I hope to see you cheer up and talking like your old spastic self again.. I miss you and I still want to go for a movie with you, k? Call me soon... We'll talk ..

I miss my dance practices.. Actually I miss my fellow Meharubas.. :(

The family has started their duties again.. They don't leave any time in between for a break.. Very very efficient I must say... But somehow this time I don't feel the same.. I guess I'm afraid and holding back still.. Just don't want things to happen the same way.. I'm scared ..

Pizza Hut has made me feel really heavy the whole day.. Thanks Shiv for being over ambitious... And Vimal, I know you told me not to thank you for these things but I feel I have to or I would be extremely ungrateful.. I really really appreciate how you picked me up in the pouring rain and sent me to northpoint without gettin wet and even sent me home after that.. The way you cater the functions and controls in the car to suit my comfort.. The way you jump out of bed to send me for tuition just cuz it was drizzling and I couldn't get a cab on time.. For putting up with my paranoia when I thought we were lost on the AYE.. For singing and providing entertainment.. For picking my friend and sending my cousin home.. For offering to make me milo cuz I didn't want to go to the pantry.. For being there for me this past week.. Thank you..

Also congratulations, Ganesh... Finally all your hardwork and efforts and discipline have paid off.. I'm really really proud of you.. I know the problems you faced throughout the months weren't little or easy to handle, yet you made it through each one and came out strong.. For holding your head high and making the best out of all the situations you faced, hats off to you and you deserved the glory today.. It's your special day and I hope you have a blast!!

Aarthi baby, I missed you! *muakz* Felt like eons since we spoke and suddenly when I spoke to you yesterday I realised how much I missed you :)

And the rest of you clowns, I miss you all.. Especially now.. Really can't wait to hang out with you all.. The zooo still seems extremely tempting and I really think we should make the most of one weekend.. We shall plan.. :)

Ok, i guess that's about it for now.. Tiill tomorrow......

Baby Nikita

Here is Baby Nikita, my little niece who is barely 2 months old.. These were the only 2 snaps we managed when she came over for Onam.. Haiz.. So tiny, so sweet, so innocent.. These are times i wish there was a baby at home... So fun and so nice to come home to them daily.. K i shall shut up now befor i start rambling..

The perfect picture.. Baby Nikita fast asleep during Onam..

Just after she woke up from all the noise in the house

A little thanks

This is something, someone did... You know who you are.. I don't have to spell it out.. This someone went to look for the picture of a blue rose to send to me just because he sent me a red rose on msn and I started being idiotic and insisted that I like blue and only want blue.. :)

That was sweet.. I do appreciate it.. And alot more things I appreciate as well...
The way you check on my progress through the day, the way you worry about my sleep, the way you never complain each time I moan and whine to you, the way you wait at Admiralty station for ages while I leave work and find a cab, the way you let me talk you into skipping work or going for class, the way you traumatise me by coming to the front of the stage while I'm up there performing, the way you miss my dance (thanks ah), the way you take a cab with me and go put of your way to send me home first, the way you offer me lozenges for a headache ( i don't understand), the way you warn me about crossing the road and stay on the line explaining how to get across without looking stupid or getting myself killed and so many more.. For all these and more, I am thankful.. :)

But that doesn't mean you'll succed in getting those 2 things from me you always ask for.. Haha

Busy Sunday

Finally, the dances are over.. At least for now.. The other one is manageable.. But, I must say Mouliyil was a royal screw up.. Haha.. What with last minute inclusion of the kids and a lack of time to practise the dance and last minute changes in formations and steps, there was no way I could have pulled that off.. It's pretty amusing to think about it now.. I really hope I never see that video.. Ever.. The good thing about it was that I got to spend some time with the most adorable of kids today, Ganga and Priya... My 5 year old co-dancers.. Haha.. the way they sit still for yoy to apply make up and then run to the mirror and start smiling when they see themselves dolled up.. It's super adorable.. Unfortunately, due to all the rush, couldn't get a snap with Priya.. Oh well, never mind.. I hope I get to see her here and there.. :)

Grandma dearest and meWith grandparents and mumThis one, I really like.. although we both look retarded.. Made him do a candid with me.. :)The very adorable Ganga and me..

Yes, I have to admit.. Vimal you're right.. I should have listened.. For very obvious reasons.. *winkz*

Oh and I realised today, a bunch of people high on alcohol and a microphone are never a good combination.. Haha..

I wish .. I wish... Haiz.. If only wishes came true..

Anyway, that's about it for today.. I'm exhausted.. Goodnight..

Onam :)

I know it's been a while.. Really really long while since I blogged.. Terribly busy week... Onam and dance and work and everything together was a mad rush.. But the advantage was that the week flew by.. Yay!!

Monday was Onam and I must say it was really nice.. Took the day off work and stayed back to entertain the constant flow of people who kept coming in, to keep refilling the cookie trays, to just be around all the people who mean so much.. This year I kept the friends list pretty short.. Mostly the girls only with a few of the guys who have always made it.. Simple but meaningful I guess.. It was really fun, all the laughter and jokes and all.. And how can I forget Bhavani's entertaining stories or Vic's momenrt of embarrassment when my mum does a sudden intro of her and Shahul.. Haha.. And the sweetest part was of course seeing Baby Nikkita frownin away in her sleep and disturbed by the noise and chatter around her.. Haha so cute.. prem is yet to send me her pics.. Meanwhile here are some snaps.. Vic, I know you've been wanting them, here goes..

The girls..Vic and me.. I still dun understand your idea of holding hands, girl.. hahaSailu and me :)A very very candid shot to test out the 'flower' light effects.. hahaokok.. I'm cheating.. This wasn't Onam.. but i like this pic.. taken after a loooong time :)

Had the performance today.. Finally.. after weeks of practices.. My dear girls, Sai, Bhavani and Sunitha.. Thanks a bunch for coming down and helping out... It was so fun with you guys around.. Thinking of steps, learning together, almost toppling on stage, looking stupid in the costume together, munching on oreos while waiting, making sudden grand entrances and exits on stage in front of a live audience TWO TIMES (k, that wasn't exactly fun).. Travelling together, dressing together, sharing life stories and going shopping.. We should do this more often :) Love ya guys.. Muaks! And also a huge thank you to Shiv, Geeta and Minori for actually taking the effort to come all the way down to give support.. You guys rock! :)

Sailu and me - Before.. attempting some last minute adjustmentsAfter-we swore this would be the first and last.. Hahapurple and orangeWith the adorable kutties

This pic was just tooooo adorable.. Ganga and Priya
Meharuba, meharuba.....

Ok.. I think that's all I have for now and uploading is annoyingly slow.. :)

I wish things didn't turn out this way.. I wish I could make you see how I really felt instead of being at a loss to let you know.. I wishe now that I hadn't let myself dream and I wish I could wake up and see it was all but a dream.. Oh well, whoever said life was easy? :) All I want to say is that I appreciate everything that was there so far and thank you for alowing me to have a dreamy few months..I would always remember this fondly..Hope you're having a good time at home.. :)