Friends

I'm in shock about yesterday. Really. Till now. I've never rushed around so much in my life before. It's funny now when i think about how unplanned, how unpredictable, how imprompto, how crazy and how stressful the whole three hours were. All the rushing, all the planning, all the last minute threats to changes in plans thanks to my family, all the snapping and flying tempers resulting from delays to the plans and the thing that affected me most was overlooking the attention the child most dearest to me wanted. For that I feel really bad. But then again everything else was pretty fun in a way.. Seems so crazy now but still worth the effort. Took me away from stuff a while, made a whole lot of difference to the painful emotions felt on Wednesday, and basically I got to meet not one, but two of the people really dear to me in one night, within one hour. See now, that makes it more memorable. And to you, you make me do the weirdest and craziest things I would never imagine myself doing, but somehow it always leaves me smiling.. I don't know how you do it, but I'm really thankful to the differences you have brought about in me, for making me smile, for bringin me out of my shell, for telling me it's alright to trust, for letting me see things differently and most of all, for believing in me.. :)

On a different note, I miss the rest of the nuts I love so dearly.. The gundus who made my life at school so memorable and fun, who made my school days so worthwhile, who were the reasons for me to look forward to each new day with a smile, who have stood by me, listening to me moan and groan, who have taken care of me when the need came, who have picked me up when I was down, who have seen me at my most embarrassing moments, who have surprised me in such pleasant ways.. i miss you all.. and I cannot wait for the exams to be over so that we can catch up... You know who you are..

-I miss the one who didnt't know my existence in class, who mistook my race at the first impression, who actually treats me like a princess, who buys me chocolates and brings me coffee and paddles a canoe to entertain me, who calls to check on me if I'm upset, who understands me so well, and keeps my secrets and pain for me, who constantly tells me to lose weight, who makes me feel intelligent when it comes to technology :), who takes pleasure in suddenly 'abunduning' me, who is a perfect friend, whom i trust with my life...
-I miss the one who approached me in class asking if I were a mutual friend, offering to keep me company because I was alone, who knows all my embarrassing moments, who sits at the benches with me stoning and listening to music, who constantly builds stupid stories around songs which makes it different listening to those songs again, who buys ice-cream allowing me to take a video of her, who loves chocolate the way I do..
-I miss the one who messaged me on friendster eagerly after spotting me at BK, who promptly wishes me on Valentine's Day for reasons other than it being Valentine's day, who patiently listened to me during a phase where I was suicidal, who helped me chase kittens from shops, who knows me so well inside out, whose grandma can't wait to serve me my 'favourite' dish..
-I miss the one who brought a black tee to school cuz she believed our stupid threats, the one who is always so calm and composed, who never fails to make me smile, who called to wish me on my birthday despite being so sick, who always brightens my day with the warm hugs she always gives to her friends..
-I miss the one who kept my drawing for two years to return it to me as a birthday card, whose life always runs parallel to mine, who never judges me no matter what, whom we kidnapped for her birthday, who is the most beautiful person inside out that i have ever come across, the one in whose presence I have embarrassed myself the most, the one from whom I ran ten miles away cuz there was a grasshopper on her head, the one who cried seeing my pain..
-I miss the one who never fails to amuse me, who drew henna patterns with me in geography tutorials, who always gets fascinated with my earrings and helps herself to them while they are on me, who is the cutest dancer I've seen, who loves her friends to death, who would always be there offering a shoulder to those in need, who gets caught in the weirdest situations with members of the public, who plots kidnapping events with me, who takes me for a pedicure with the excuse of buying shampoo from watson's
-I miss the one with whom I had issues from the day we ended up in the same school, who threw crshed up paper at me, who mistakes trees for people, who breaks into a dance routine in the middle of the beach, who amazes me with his dancing, who listens to all my problems and cares so much, who escorted me carefully along the shore cuz i wanted to walk in the water but was scared, who dumps his food on my plate when nobody is looking because he cannot finish it, who has been my superhero throughout predicament or confusion i have faced..
-I miss the one who steals my family from me, who makes my grandparents and mum her own, who wins the hearts of everyone over, who scolds organisers of shows even if she doesn't understand the language they speak, who dances so beautifully, who gets excited when a celebrity remembers her name, who has so much commitment that she turns up for rehearsals blind in one eye, the one who throws herself in the line of fire to protect me, who dried my tears, who would chop up any guy who messes with me..
-I miss the one who calls me his younger sister, who opened my O level result slip for me cuz I was too afraid to do so, who drew pictures of shrek with me, who has become a part of my family, who tells me honestly his opinions on my decisions, who held me when i cried, who stood by me during my problems,who ran across blocks with me to put me safely in a cab before I got hurt, who watches out for me always..
- I miss the one who spent every saturday with me, whom i went shopping for matching belts and shoes with, who was my weekly praying partner, who romantically shared ice creams with me, who would very patiently follow me everywhere to get a dress, who dances like an angel, who would come after school, tired out with assignments that were due, just for dance practises for a last minute performance, who doesnt mind lugging along blankets and notes all over the shopping centre with me..
-I miss the one who has seen me all her life, who looks like an angel, who sings like an angel and who is an absolute angel, who has so much patience in picking shoes for me, who stays over with me, who makes breakfast for me, who has such a kind and generous heart that she touches everyone, who claims she is not sleepy and will wake everyone up if they oversleep, but ends up being the hardest one to wake eventually, who listens to all my problems and supports me..
-I miss the one who is always working, whom we rushed to the airport to see, who has gorgeous eyes, who always helps out for dances, who follows me to put make-up for little kids, who loves chocolates like me, who is such a dear younger sister to all, who comes all the way to my school to pick me up and send me home because she was afraid for my safety..
-I miss the one who is so far away yet so close to my heart, who has the nicest smile ever, who sends me flowers for my birthday, who is always there as an elder sister, ready to listen to your problems and tell you it will all be okay, who plans the craziest ideas for surprises, who drives all her cousins around with no complaints, who is everyone'e role model..
-I miss the one whom i grew up with, who knows me inside out, who is living proof that time and distance are never factors in a beautiful friendship, who gets her mum to run around to get me a present for my birthday because she is not around, who meets me so rarely but time seems to pass by so beautifully even if all we do is have dinner at some void deck, whom i used to run around with since we were seven, whom I have gotten soaked with flour and seawater with, who has stood by me through it all...
-I miss the one who buys me chocolate at every meeting, who comes up with the sweetest phrases with the initials of my name, who cares so much that it's unbelievable, whom i knew eight years back but never spoke to, who comes up with the most unpredictable lines, who doesn't complain one bit for the numerous times where i displayed a lack of punctuality or got held up, who places bets with me over card games, the one who cannot see my cry, the one who never judges me..
-I miss the one who used jogging as an excuse to meet me, who bought me Hershey's and passed it through my brother for my 18th birthday, the one who got us lost at Tampines after the show, who scared the hell out of me at the beach, who used to fight with me to read stuff in my inbox, who kept calling my brother through my O Levels to remind me that I shouldn't bother studying cuz I'm bound to fail, whom I used to look forward to going home with almost every night, who made me smile with the sort of things he said, whose uncle got me stuck in embarrassing situations, the one from whom I learnt how to give unselfishly..
-I miss the one who stayed up at night to talk to me despite a cockroach traumatising her and despite hearing noises, the one who gets so shy talking about her crush, the one who goes crazy over ryan giggs, who calls me her fellow 'mangamma' sister, who has the cheeriest and warmest of smiles, who has offered me so much of support at my lowest points..
- I miss the one who followed me for a movie and sniffled in the theatres with me, who calls to check up on how I am, who has so much affection and warmth in her that it shows, who stoned at my place with me watchin a movie while snackin on drinks and cookies, who gets stopped at the minimart for a mistaken identity, who cares so much that she doesnt mind the time she put aside to offer me comfort and ease my pain..
-I miss the one who is always so bubbly, who shared her thought with me under a tree in the park while the rest played soccer, whom I had a blast dancing with, who showed so much patience while explaining maths to me, who has so much spice in her, who appreciates the little things in life, who stands up for her beliefs and who makes me feel special with the genuinity and efforts she puts in for things..
- I miss the jumping jacksons, who grew up with me, who watched me grow, who have never stopped caring, who always make me feel warm around them, who highly embarrass me during speeches, who offer me support and encouragement all the time, who would always be there, who would always be special, who used to play in the playground with me after school, whom im proud to call my childhood friends...
-I miss the three angels I grew up with in secondary school, the three who saw me laugh, saw me cry,saw me blush, the ones who were my reasons to come to school smiling, the ones who saved up allowance with me every week so we could all splurge it all on friday evenings after CCA, the ones who sing songs about soap with me, the ones with whom i got so freaked out because of a game and the responses received from it, whom I share so many fond memories with, whom i huddled with at school camp watchin shadows across the walls at night, the ones who will always hold a very special place in my heart...

I miss all you guys, you should know who you are.. And every incident in which you guys have stood by me and made a difference to my life.. there are so many things i couldn't have achieved without you guys and I just want you all to know that I love you guys to bits.. we totally got to meet up and spend some time together alright? Can't wait for the 6th of June! Muakz!