I wish I knew

Im so tired. I don't know why.. And my eye is constantly annoying me.. :( Couldn't sleep properly either. Was so restless. And I still have dance class to attend. Depressing I say. A whole two hours of it. Haiz.

Anyway mum has finally planned an outing, after stoning at home the last few days. At least now I can take the car to class and don't have to die in the train. That's the only bright spot for the day. :)

I so badly want to watch the Bee movie!!! And Vic and I had a couple of surprises planned out, just hoping they take place. It's getting pretty upsetting now cuz the people involved may not be able to make it.. We really hope they can cuz it's so much of anticipation involved.. :) It's something we both have to really work hard on if things go well and we hope it does, so people, COOPERATE! Mr. Montero, management isnt happy with your crazy schedule. :)

I keep feeling something.. I know what the decision was.. I know where it was headed.. Now I hear something else that I cannot decide whether to trust or not.. Trusting it gives me hope, but Im scared of hope. I think I felt alot more than I was willing to show you. Perhaps that's why you never knew how important this whole thing was to me.. You never saw the tears or knew of the internal ache.. I never let you, cuz I never wanted you to feel bad.. But I wish I knew... I wish I knew things I want to know... I wish... I wish I knew you..